I'm way too sober for this sh**, waiting for robotic bronchoscopy.
Hi , I'm Ronnie. I am 56 years old 33 years clean&sober and currently a 28 year survivor of a stage 3 Astrocytoma. My mom was diagnosed with nonsmall celllung cancer the day I got home from surgery and although we were laughing about being a sad lifetime movie and doing chemo together it metastasized to her bones then she died as I finished radiation. Mine had escaped diagnoses for 7 + years due to no insurance and noone listening to a young female recovering addict. I finally had culinary union insurance and lucked into a clinical drug trial. So there I was just living and minding my own damn business when few months back I was assigned a new medical provider and she ordered *alla the things* bloodwork, mammogram PAP, sleep study and a cancer screening CT on Friday the 13th (because of course) which led to a pet scan ordered Monday and appointment with pulmonologist weds and robotic bronchoscopy coming up Friday there are 8 nodules . most concerning ones are 8mm 9mm and 2.3 x 1.8 cm. I'm really not sure what I should be doing right now if that makes sense, like on a real and practical level. I don't have any family left and haven't told all of my friends yet. I'll tell them and my 28 year old daughter (who has serious mental illness after meningitis at age 3 and landed in prison until March so that's a hard one) I'm not freaking out I didn't have any symptoms ,haven't even had a "real" cold since before Covid but I have been kind of flat emotionally, "tired" ,avoiding people (which is mostly due to being in a high Covid area and liking my brain enough to protect it, has been easy because I'm an introvert but it hasn't bothered me at all)and just thought I was depressed by climate change ,rising fascism and the like. Any practical suggestions on what I should do? The brain tumor luckily only affected my ability to do algebra and stay organized. Sorry this is so long and rambly I am in dire need of a snack and a nap. Thanks in advance for input I miss my mom she was super organized and on top of everything:)