How to Help Myself with Depression, Anxiety and Panic Attacks

Posted by littleonefmohio @littleonefmohio, Mar 19, 2018

I have had depression most my life. I have took medication for it but I do not stay on it long because of being scared of the side effects or the withdraws from coming off of it. I do not want to become addicted to medication. I have never been addicted to anything so not sure why I feel that way. I have my ups and downs like most people do with mental health I guess. Its hard to talk about it to doctors because I do not trust them either. So how do I get help for myself. I always feel alone even though I am not. I was blessed raising my granddaughter 3 years ago which has helped me stay focused off of me and on her but I constantly feel alone. I live with my ex husband because he helps me with my granddaughter both raising and supporting her. I never want to go anywhere. I have no friends. I have siblings but they have their own life. I do go out once in a great while just to get out and I do enjoy it when I am out but then I come home and right back not wanting to go anywhere. I feel guilty all the time about my life for one reason or another. I have panic attacks, anxiety, along with the depression. I have tried talking to doctors that just want to talk it out but I don't stay long with that because I feel guilty talking about me and my problems and my past. So can someone tell me what they do for this that works if anything? Thanks for letting me vent this.

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Hello! I am a 47 year old mom of 4 kids. When my last daughter was born I went on lexapro due to very upsetting insomnia, anxiety and depression postpartum. I had this issue of insomnia and anxiety before my first was born as well but thankfully I was ok for many years while my kids were little and was on no meds. I was prescribed lexapro after my last daughter born, rough startup but eventually It overall worked for 8 years at 10mg. I would still have flare ups of insomnia which I wasn’t crazy about occasionally still once or twice a month. I slowly weaned to 5 went off and had no issues other then some crying spells. 4 months have gone by. I went off because I didn’t want to be on meds longer and felt overall better and was hoping to loose some stuck weight. I did loose my dad in February and have a very stressful issue with my 16 year old behaviorally so perhaps wasn’t best decision.2 weeks ago I started to spiral with depression and anxiety I was waking up at 5am often I think brought on by stress. Decided to go back on 5mg lexapro a week ago. My insomnia got much worse after trying to restart 5mg lexapro I wake up at 1:30 and can’t go back to bed. Freaked me out and stopped it. My new symptom is panic attacks which I didn’t have in the past where adrenaline rushes through myBody multiple times a day. I am now trying tryptophan, theanine, valerian, and cbd and thc gummies is my next option.the last 3 nights I have slept 3- 4 hrs last night I popped a Xanax because woke up after one hr and couldn’t go back to bed. Not sure whatTo do. I also am getting to premenopausal age so perhaps some of this factors in. I’m thinking this is a relapse and will need meds for life 😭Has anyone restarted lexapro or there drugs and had a success story? Scared to go through side effects startup and have to switch meds. Anyone here on meds for life?Thank you in advance 😊

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I am also on lexapro and had a lot of the issue the same things happening to me. I also have Multiple Sclerosis so blamed most of it on that but then realized nope this is different, I was paralyzed by the panic attacks and started to have hot flashes(I thought were MS), brain fog and just pains in places that didn’t make sense. I again blamed it on MS, but waking up at 1, 2 or 4:36 in pure fight or flight, I finally went to a dr who told me I’m in perimenopause and asked if I wanted to do hormone replacement therapy. I said yes and thank you Jesus!!!! It’s not 100% but it’s 100% better than it was! I hope that helps you.

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@sarawiet im glad it’s helping you 🥰

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@sarawiet I’ve been on lexapro for years and now estrogen and progesterone for a month and a a half and feel like a different person.

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@sarawiet That is good to know as I have been thinking about some hormonal support. If you don''t mind me asking, how do you feel different?

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Hello! I am a 47 year old mom of 4 kids. When my last daughter was born I went on lexapro due to very upsetting insomnia, anxiety and depression postpartum. I had this issue of insomnia and anxiety before my first was born as well but thankfully I was ok for many years while my kids were little and was on no meds. I was prescribed lexapro after my last daughter born, rough startup but eventually It overall worked for 8 years at 10mg. I would still have flare ups of insomnia which I wasn’t crazy about occasionally still once or twice a month. I slowly weaned to 5 went off and had no issues other then some crying spells. 4 months have gone by. I went off because I didn’t want to be on meds longer and felt overall better and was hoping to loose some stuck weight. I did loose my dad in February and have a very stressful issue with my 16 year old behaviorally so perhaps wasn’t best decision.2 weeks ago I started to spiral with depression and anxiety I was waking up at 5am often I think brought on by stress. Decided to go back on 5mg lexapro a week ago. My insomnia got much worse after trying to restart 5mg lexapro I wake up at 1:30 and can’t go back to bed. Freaked me out and stopped it. My new symptom is panic attacks which I didn’t have in the past where adrenaline rushes through myBody multiple times a day. I am now trying tryptophan, theanine, valerian, and cbd and thc gummies is my next option.the last 3 nights I have slept 3- 4 hrs last night I popped a Xanax because woke up after one hr and couldn’t go back to bed. Not sure whatTo do. I also am getting to premenopausal age so perhaps some of this factors in. I’m thinking this is a relapse and will need meds for life 😭Has anyone restarted lexapro or there drugs and had a success story? Scared to go through side effects startup and have to switch meds. Anyone here on meds for life?Thank you in advance 😊

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The hot flashes are fewer and farther apart, I can sleep peacefully, my moods have partly to mostly normalized I’d say😉. I can concentrate and form a full sentence without losing myself in mid conversation. Most importantly, I’m not stuck in panic since I started HRT. Like I said it’s definitely not 100% but it’s 100% better than it was. I don’t feel lost anymore. I still have a ton of things going with Multiple Sclerosis but I feel that getting this mostly under control helped out all of my other symptoms so much. I also forgot to say I was first told that I was too young by one doctor for this to be happening(I’m 45)so I found a different Dr(OBGYN)that listened. It really sucks for us but actually getting it under control was life changing for me.

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Hello! I am a 47 year old mom of 4 kids. When my last daughter was born I went on lexapro due to very upsetting insomnia, anxiety and depression postpartum. I had this issue of insomnia and anxiety before my first was born as well but thankfully I was ok for many years while my kids were little and was on no meds. I was prescribed lexapro after my last daughter born, rough startup but eventually It overall worked for 8 years at 10mg. I would still have flare ups of insomnia which I wasn’t crazy about occasionally still once or twice a month. I slowly weaned to 5 went off and had no issues other then some crying spells. 4 months have gone by. I went off because I didn’t want to be on meds longer and felt overall better and was hoping to loose some stuck weight. I did loose my dad in February and have a very stressful issue with my 16 year old behaviorally so perhaps wasn’t best decision.2 weeks ago I started to spiral with depression and anxiety I was waking up at 5am often I think brought on by stress. Decided to go back on 5mg lexapro a week ago. My insomnia got much worse after trying to restart 5mg lexapro I wake up at 1:30 and can’t go back to bed. Freaked me out and stopped it. My new symptom is panic attacks which I didn’t have in the past where adrenaline rushes through myBody multiple times a day. I am now trying tryptophan, theanine, valerian, and cbd and thc gummies is my next option.the last 3 nights I have slept 3- 4 hrs last night I popped a Xanax because woke up after one hr and couldn’t go back to bed. Not sure whatTo do. I also am getting to premenopausal age so perhaps some of this factors in. I’m thinking this is a relapse and will need meds for life 😭Has anyone restarted lexapro or there drugs and had a success story? Scared to go through side effects startup and have to switch meds. Anyone here on meds for life?Thank you in advance 😊

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Were you on the Lexapro already when the panic started suddenly or did going on Lexapro start the panic? That sucks they tell us we’re “too young” to have this happening to us. I had someone tell me that too. 🙄 Glad you’re feeling more like yourself!

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Were you on the Lexapro already when the panic started suddenly or did going on Lexapro start the panic? That sucks they tell us we’re “too young” to have this happening to us. I had someone tell me that too. 🙄 Glad you’re feeling more like yourself!

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@climbingmountains81 I was already on Lexapro, mostly for depression/mood stability(MS) I may have had 3 panic attacks before all of this started. I was put on diazepam because it was so bad. I felt like I was losing my mind,

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Hello! I am a 47 year old mom of 4 kids. When my last daughter was born I went on lexapro due to very upsetting insomnia, anxiety and depression postpartum. I had this issue of insomnia and anxiety before my first was born as well but thankfully I was ok for many years while my kids were little and was on no meds. I was prescribed lexapro after my last daughter born, rough startup but eventually It overall worked for 8 years at 10mg. I would still have flare ups of insomnia which I wasn’t crazy about occasionally still once or twice a month. I slowly weaned to 5 went off and had no issues other then some crying spells. 4 months have gone by. I went off because I didn’t want to be on meds longer and felt overall better and was hoping to loose some stuck weight. I did loose my dad in February and have a very stressful issue with my 16 year old behaviorally so perhaps wasn’t best decision.2 weeks ago I started to spiral with depression and anxiety I was waking up at 5am often I think brought on by stress. Decided to go back on 5mg lexapro a week ago. My insomnia got much worse after trying to restart 5mg lexapro I wake up at 1:30 and can’t go back to bed. Freaked me out and stopped it. My new symptom is panic attacks which I didn’t have in the past where adrenaline rushes through myBody multiple times a day. I am now trying tryptophan, theanine, valerian, and cbd and thc gummies is my next option.the last 3 nights I have slept 3- 4 hrs last night I popped a Xanax because woke up after one hr and couldn’t go back to bed. Not sure whatTo do. I also am getting to premenopausal age so perhaps some of this factors in. I’m thinking this is a relapse and will need meds for life 😭Has anyone restarted lexapro or there drugs and had a success story? Scared to go through side effects startup and have to switch meds. Anyone here on meds for life?Thank you in advance 😊

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I weaned fine slowly and then 4 months later went back on it because after a loss and major stress with my one daughter decided to get back on it. Lexapro made it way worse.

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@climbingmountains81 I was already on Lexapro, mostly for depression/mood stability(MS) I may have had 3 panic attacks before all of this started. I was put on diazepam because it was so bad. I felt like I was losing my mind,

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@sarawiet thanks for sharing. ❤️ Gosh, I’m so glad you’re feeling better!

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Were you on the Lexapro already when the panic started suddenly or did going on Lexapro start the panic? That sucks they tell us we’re “too young” to have this happening to us. I had someone tell me that too. 🙄 Glad you’re feeling more like yourself!

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@climbingmountains81
Im 47 just wish I were older and wouldn’t worry so
Much about taking sleep stuff. I would pop Xanax like candy 😂I feel badly for people who are effected at a young age.

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I weaned fine slowly and then 4 months later went back on it because after a loss and major stress with my one daughter decided to get back on it. Lexapro made it way worse.

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@ancl123 yep, same for me. I weaned with the help of 5HTP and was doing great but my mom passed recently and I had some other stressors come up as well as getting a terrible chest cold for a month and needing to be put on antibiotics so thought I’d benefit from a little extra support and it just blew my system up going back on. I think maybe I healed some with Ketamine and the amino acid therapy and my body just couldn’t tolerate the Lexapro in the same way anymore but also I’ve heard it can be way worse trying to go back on for some people which has definitely been the case for me. I’m just trying to stabilize on a low dose the panic/anxiety that Lexapro caused but I know that takes a while. Don’t think you were wrong to get off and try another altogether as I’ve heard sometimes that’s what people have to do. I’m sorry that one doctor made you keep going up which I know just made things worse. I did try some Reishi mushroom powder last night from Hyperion herbs which helped a lot I think. I’m going to keep drinking that (just 1/2 tsp-1tsp before bed) and it seems to shut down the adrenals so that could be something you try. I also just got some blue blocking glasses to wear as it gets later which seemed to help as well. Taking a small emergency dose of Xanax .25 when the panic is too high is helpful too but not every day if possible as that’s how you develop a tolerance. ❤️

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