~ Just about done with everything ~

Posted by amberpep @amberpep, Sep 11, 2017

Hi all … first I want to apologize for this note. I know you all must get tired of hearing it and I don’t blame you. I’m just about done with everything ….. I like my apartment, but the kids upstairs are so loud, screeching, running, banging furniture around, and it sounds like they drop bowling balls on the floor (I’m sure they’re not, but they’re something heavy), and it goes on til 11. They’re so loud in the living room my sliding glass door rattles. I’ve had 3 kids and I know kids are noisy, but this is way beyond noise. The policeman living aside of them went over one night and gave them “what for” and for a few days it was quiet. Last week I had to write a note to the Mgr. but never heard back. I don’t think they’re going to do a darn thing about it. I have absolutely no energy or interest in unpacking all these boxes … they make me sick to see them. My family is bickering about “an I-phone or GPS for Mom.” Geez, you’d think I didn’t have a brain. I should have never, ever, moved. Yes, I love being with my girls, but they have their lives and are busy and I can’t expect them to entertain me ….. Lord knows, I don’t want to be entertained. If my condo weren’t sold, I’d go back. I close my eyes and daydream about sitting in my living room up there, feeling safe, cozy, and happy. And ….. these da_n teeth are a pain. I’ve read about them and it takes quite awhile to get used to them …. I’ll say …. right now it feels like a mouth full of rocks. As soon as I’m home out they come. I should just go away and hide and become the “shrunken face lady” in the mountains. I thought I was through all the crap when my divorce went through …. guess not.
abby

@prashantnayal123

Hello everyone i want to share something please forgive my bad english
Sometimes when i yawn my jaw popps a little and it happens to all but i didn’t know about it so i search on Google to know the cause in shows a disorder tmd and after 2 days of reading all about tmd and started checking my jaw every minute for unusual things like opening jaw several times in a day, yawning for know reason only to check popping noise and first there was no pain not a single issue only popping but after 2 days of foolish checking of jaw i developed pain in my jaw its like i check my jaw every minute to listen popping and click noise and i swear there was no pain no problem only the popping and clicking and when i asked my dentist friend he told me that 60 percent of people jaw click with no pain its normal but i constantly check my jaw dont know what to do

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Hi prashantnayal …… what you’ve got is TMJ …. temporal mandibular joint dysfunction. It usually comes from clenching your teeth together and it causes the joints on either side to get very sore. I had it some years ago, and first the Oral Surgeon told me to only eat soft foods, noodles, applesauce, mashed potatoes, etc. In the meantime he took an impression of my mouth and had a mouth guard made for me which fit over my either upper or lower when I slept at night. I forget if it was upper or lower. It took time but eventually went away, but I used the mouth guard for a long time after that.
abby

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@prashantnayal123

Hello everyone i want to share something please forgive my bad english
Sometimes when i yawn my jaw popps a little and it happens to all but i didn’t know about it so i search on Google to know the cause in shows a disorder tmd and after 2 days of reading all about tmd and started checking my jaw every minute for unusual things like opening jaw several times in a day, yawning for know reason only to check popping noise and first there was no pain not a single issue only popping but after 2 days of foolish checking of jaw i developed pain in my jaw its like i check my jaw every minute to listen popping and click noise and i swear there was no pain no problem only the popping and clicking and when i asked my dentist friend he told me that 60 percent of people jaw click with no pain its normal but i constantly check my jaw dont know what to do

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But i dont clench teeths i checked with my dentist he told me that it is normal to click noises 60 percent people’s jaw click and and there was no pain but after checking for two days i developed pain because i open my jaw several times only to listen clicking noise

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And please tell me amber how is your tmd is it gone or u still have it and if its gone how much time it took to go away and please tell me how much your mouth guard cost and how long you use the guard please tell .
I am veryy poor…

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@prashantnayal123

Hello everyone i want to share something please forgive my bad english
Sometimes when i yawn my jaw popps a little and it happens to all but i didn’t know about it so i search on Google to know the cause in shows a disorder tmd and after 2 days of reading all about tmd and started checking my jaw every minute for unusual things like opening jaw several times in a day, yawning for know reason only to check popping noise and first there was no pain not a single issue only popping but after 2 days of foolish checking of jaw i developed pain in my jaw its like i check my jaw every minute to listen popping and click noise and i swear there was no pain no problem only the popping and clicking and when i asked my dentist friend he told me that 60 percent of people jaw click with no pain its normal but i constantly check my jaw dont know what to do

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@prashantnayal123

Have you ever popped your knuckles? I know that some people get into a habit of doing it and can’t stop. Perhaps you are doing something similar when you pop your jaw. Why don’t you try to think about something else when you start to pop it? You can try many different things to stop the habit. One thing I thought of is counting to 20 whenever the thought comes, and tell yourself that you won’t do anything until after counting. Just a thought. Sometimes it can be harder to stop a habit than to start one. Can you think of other things you could do to distract yourself? Or maybe have someone massage your neck and jaw to relax it. That would really feel good!

Jim

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@amberpep

Hi Teresa ….. thank you for thinking of me. The trees are all changing rather oddly this year …. sort of patchy. I still have some hummingbirds coming to my feeder, and also some tufted titmice and chickadees are coming to my black oil feeder. Now that’s really odd. Those hummers should have headed for Mexico a long time ago. I haven’t written much lately because it’s just the same old/same old. I’m in my new apartment … quite large, but lots of problems …. extremely loud neighbors (I’m sure the teens above me must practice gymnastics), lots of drugs everywhere, ambulance is here at least 3x a week and fire engines about 2, there’s a woman who lives below me who is paranoid schizophrenic and who won’t take her meds because “she’s fine.” She walks her dog in summer in a long black heavy coat, head covered, and I’m told that she’s a stalker and to be careful of her. There’s all sorts of things to deal with …. believe me, I’m well locked in here … door lock, padlock, and a heavy metal 3 ft. pole with rubber at both end that tucks underneath the doorknob and the metal bar presses onto the floor. I just hate to think that this is the place I will live out my last days. But, it is what it is, and by then I won’t care anyhow.
abby

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@amberpep

Hi there, Abby. I’m glad that I live where I can look out the window and see beauty, too. Right now, it’s raining intermittently, and I have some expensive canvas drop cloths draped over my tomato plants to protect them from the frost. Oh well. They’ll dry out eventually. When I went to the cellar yesterday to get them out, I found a dead mouse lying on top, and the canvas smelled pretty bad, so a little rain might help with that.

Our kids know that we are here to stay. They’re the ones who will have to move if they want to be closer. The only exception might be if I die first, and our son-in-law has retired from the Coast Guard, and they have settled down somewhere. My wife would probably sell the place and move near them. Depends on where they settle. It would be really hard for me to leave my home, with 10 acres of space.

Have you unpacked more boxes? I know that I would feel better if some of my old familiar things were out where I could see them. Tell me you have started. Please?

Enjoy the Virginia autumn.

Jim

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@amberpep

Hi Teresa ….. thank you for thinking of me. The trees are all changing rather oddly this year …. sort of patchy. I still have some hummingbirds coming to my feeder, and also some tufted titmice and chickadees are coming to my black oil feeder. Now that’s really odd. Those hummers should have headed for Mexico a long time ago. I haven’t written much lately because it’s just the same old/same old. I’m in my new apartment … quite large, but lots of problems …. extremely loud neighbors (I’m sure the teens above me must practice gymnastics), lots of drugs everywhere, ambulance is here at least 3x a week and fire engines about 2, there’s a woman who lives below me who is paranoid schizophrenic and who won’t take her meds because “she’s fine.” She walks her dog in summer in a long black heavy coat, head covered, and I’m told that she’s a stalker and to be careful of her. There’s all sorts of things to deal with …. believe me, I’m well locked in here … door lock, padlock, and a heavy metal 3 ft. pole with rubber at both end that tucks underneath the doorknob and the metal bar presses onto the floor. I just hate to think that this is the place I will live out my last days. But, it is what it is, and by then I won’t care anyhow.
abby

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Hi Jim ….. I’ve probably unpacked maybe 2 more boxes ….. I just don’t feel like doing it. I just want to go “home” but I know that’s not possible as my condo is sold now, and rent in MD is way too high for me. Right now I live in a limited income complex ….. lots of problems here, and a lot of very angry and/or sick people. I keep my apartment door triple locked …. that’s no way to live.
abby

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Hi ….. well I was clenching my teeth during my sleep at night, so I wasen’t aware of it. After I got the fitted flexible guard I wore every night, it took about 1-2 months to go away. But, for about a year afterwards, I had to be careful. No problems anymore.
abby

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@amberpep

Hi Teresa ….. thank you for thinking of me. The trees are all changing rather oddly this year …. sort of patchy. I still have some hummingbirds coming to my feeder, and also some tufted titmice and chickadees are coming to my black oil feeder. Now that’s really odd. Those hummers should have headed for Mexico a long time ago. I haven’t written much lately because it’s just the same old/same old. I’m in my new apartment … quite large, but lots of problems …. extremely loud neighbors (I’m sure the teens above me must practice gymnastics), lots of drugs everywhere, ambulance is here at least 3x a week and fire engines about 2, there’s a woman who lives below me who is paranoid schizophrenic and who won’t take her meds because “she’s fine.” She walks her dog in summer in a long black heavy coat, head covered, and I’m told that she’s a stalker and to be careful of her. There’s all sorts of things to deal with …. believe me, I’m well locked in here … door lock, padlock, and a heavy metal 3 ft. pole with rubber at both end that tucks underneath the doorknob and the metal bar presses onto the floor. I just hate to think that this is the place I will live out my last days. But, it is what it is, and by then I won’t care anyhow.
abby

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Hi Abby @amberpep We lived in Daly City, a suburb of San Francisco, and I know what feeling unsafe is like. I rode the two most dangerous bus lines every day to and from work in the city. I had to walk several blocks to get to and from the bus stop and always stayed alert. Where we live now, we have to worry more about the coyotes than the thugs.

Two boxes is a start, right? I imagine the boxes are labeled. Is there one that has stuff in it that you need? Maybe there’s one that has some things in it that have sentimental value. How about finding a couple that would improve your quality of life and think about each thing as you unwrap it and find a place for it. I’ll be curious to hear what you find.

Jim

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@amberpep

Hi all ….. well, this has been quite a weekend, and I may have hit on something that could help. I saw my Psychiatrist last week, and besides our usual talk and discussion of medications, he wrote out a script for me to have a thyroid blood test done. Now, I’ve been taking Synthroid for 2 years (Big Pharma’s favorite). I have a good friend from Germany who has lived in the states for many years and she is a real researcher (not academically, but she really goes after things). She told me to go to Amazon, type in “Stop the Madness” and take a look at all the books there written about how hypothyroidism affects depression. So, I started to dig, I ordered one of the books, the first book, and also checked a lot of reputable sites about this. Wow. What I didn’t know was astounding. In the states usually what is tested is T-3 and T-4, but there are others that could, and should be tested, especially with a patient who struggles with severe depression. My friend told me that she had to virtually fight with her Internist to get him to have her get the other tests (don’t know what they are yet, but I’ll find out). He relented and sure enough, very low thyroid, and she was on Synthroid. She knew of a medication for this that is commonly used in Germany and works far better than Synthroid, and insisted he Rx it for her. She has to send to Canada for it as it’s not available in the States – Big Pharma’s influence again. For the passed several years I feel like just a slug …. I’ve just moved into a new apt. ….. I don’t want to unpack, don’t want to do the dishes, don’t want to wash my face at night, basically, I don’t want to do anything but sit and sleep. This morning I had planned to go to church, had everything laid out to wear, alarm set, and I was sitting eating my breakfast, and I totally fell asleep. I woke up 1-1/2 hrs. later. This is very common for me … I’d say 5 days out of 7. So, I am going to call my Internist tomorrow and make an appt. to see her and talk about this, show her the Rx, and tell her about what I’d learned. When I get the book, I’ll take that in. I have a strong suspicion this could be part of my depression, not all of it, but part. About 10 years ago I was coming home on the train from St. Louis (an overnighter), and when I woke in the AM I had a small itchy bump on my hand. By the time I got from Chicago to MD I had hives all over my body the size of plates – I was scared to death. I called my doctor, and she was out that day, so they gave me to the “senior” member who should have retired years before, and he Rx-d cortisone, which is usual. But, he Rx-d a bottle of them and told me that as soon as I got home to take 6 (yes, six!) of them, and then start the next AM with 1 or two several times a day. Well, by midnight I was acting like I was on a drug high ….. sooooooooo happy, dancing, singing, doing and saying strange things ….. just totally manic. A girlfriend I was with that evening told me I should not drive …. she didn’t know what was wrong, but something was. But, OH NO, I knew I was fine …. just “happy.” She stayed that night as she was worried and the next day I went to my regular Internist. She was absolutely appalled by me, my behavior and everything else was so not me. I told her what happened, but again – I was fine!!!! She immediately gave me the regular pred-pack, and another med. which I can’t remember, told me NOT to drive, and to call her if I felt anything stranger happening (like I would have known). She said because of the little dot that itched, she suspected I was bitten by a juvenile black widow spider and I was highly allergic to it. She wanted my friend to bring me in every day that week, and then once a week for 6 weeks. She said that if in 6 weeks I was still manic, we were going to have to do some serious tests ….. she said the quantity of prednisone I had taken originally (6) had totally blown out my adrenal glands and if they didn’t recover fully, we’d have to do testing. (the “senior” doctor who Rx’d that ridiculous amount immediately retired). Well, I came down from the high in about 5 weeks, but since then I’m tired all the time, fall asleep at the drop of a hat, dry skin, have gained weight for no reason, and I just don’t have the energy to do anything at all. I think I said that it is not uncommon for me to fall asleep in the middle of eating, which is what happened today. My friend told me since she’s been taking the other medication (and I don’t know the name), she has to send for them to Canada, she’s beginning to feel much, much, better. She told me that synthroid is hardly ever used in Germany anymore as they have found that this is far more effective, but Big Pharma has us sending for it to Canada. If you’re interested, go to Amazon, and type in “Stop the Madness” and a list of books will come up. I got the first one (it’s the second edition) and I’ll go from there. I hope it comes soon so I can take it into my doctor and talk about it. I’m so thankful for a sharp Psychiatrist, who seems to be on top of things like this, moreso than my Internists.
abby

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Hi, @sallie–Wondered if you might share more about what type of testing you underwent? You also mentioned that the new combination of medications that came out of that testing helped immensely. What kinds of depression symptoms did these medications help you with?

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Due to a broken teeth on my right side i chew from my left side and when the clicking sound comes from my right side but i have no pain and when i checked my left side of face i found out that my left cheeks are harder than my right cheeks and my left jaw from below is little big than my right.
Can this be the reason of clicking sound on my right side and if yes can anyone tell me i myself treat this problem by chewing from both sides or i have to go to dentist for this

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I used to work for a dentist, and with everything you’re describing, you really should see a dentist. A cracked tooth doesn’t just sit there, it either continues to crack downward, decays, or becomes infected – an absess. I think you’d be wise to see your dentist.
abby

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Yes sir i had root canal surgery but my problem is i didn’t cover my teeth from teeth cap because of my financial problems so i started eating from other side

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@prashantnayal123

Yes sir i had root canal surgery but my problem is i didn’t cover my teeth from teeth cap because of my financial problems so i started eating from other side

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Please see if perhaps you can work something out financially with the dentist. A tooth that has had a root canal, must be filled with a sterile paste type substance, and then have a crown made for it. Otherwise, you could really get a terrible infection down there.
abby

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@amberpep So sorry and not at all tired of hearing about your despair and discouragement. Noisy here where I live as well. Hugs.

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I’m so sorry you’re having such a rough time. It’s very hard to go from your house into an apartment. We too sold our house and bought a condo. There’s a couple above us that drive me crazy with their noise! How 2 people can be that loud and drop stuff all the time is beyond me. I totally get your frustration. It’s also hard to play 2nd fiddle in your kids life. I envisioned it differently too and then my reality isn’t the same. Try putting on your favorite music and then focus on unpacking and decorating one room at a time. Having your things around you will make it more your home. I’m praying you’ll have better days ahead. God bless!

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