help!highly sensitive to most meds - panic disorder/anxiety/depression

To start off with sober 9 1/2 years, yay. 💕

Took lexapro as prescribed (had taken for years) suddenly had a severe reaction landed in er thought having heart attack. Domino effect had another reaction to a med I had been taking over 7 months, boom -er visit.

Let me add I did have pregnancy I think that’s changed my hormones greatly.

Panic attacks start happening I’m not reacting well on hydralazine, panic attacks worse 8 panic attacks two days. Attavan that was absolutely terrible I don’t remember that night and following day.
Given bursar and cymbalta and seroquel (given all within a day) and one other s one at behavioral health honestly felt like dying inside. 10 day stay at behavioral health.
Gabbapetin seemed okay but once I came out to real world panic attacks in the morning upon waking 😔 2 day visit to behavioral health

On Wellbutrin now for 10 days
Gabbapettin 24 days
Kalonopin 10 days

I’m scared I cannot take SSRIs (drs figured this out along with me) bad reaction to ALL feel like dying on most of them.
Kalonpin seems to be the only think to stop the panic attacks and I’m having 2 episodes where it’s starting a day.

I don’t want to be on kalonopin due knowing it’s history but it’s the only thing that’s works I’m starting to freak out

Any other med suggestion to help stop the panic attacks and any support for being sensitive to meds like my god I’m exhausted and scared.