deep depression need help

I’m very sorry that you’re having such a difficult time, I am going through the same thing with depression and not getting any help from my meds. I’ve tried numerous medications but I just can’t tolerate how they make me feel…I think that you’re having the same issue, if you have been on the same medication for many years it’s very possible that they aren’t helping you anymore, this is a very common problem because our bodies develop a tolerance. Perhaps you should see your doctor and tell them what you are experiencing, chances are they will probably change your medication or maybe add something to what you’re taking, it’s a difficult issue to go through but in time you will be able to resolve your problem and hopefully feel better, good wishes.

I have had depression for over 35 years and generally doing okay, but have had occasional periods related to emotional triggers and it is very discouraging. Not sure what medications you are taking, but one of the things I did was change my physician as I was uncomfortable with what I felt were too frequent dose changes which were not working. I am not a doctor and not qualified to make medication suggestions but I recommend continuing to talk with your doctor, do some research on meds and mainly be kind to yourself during these down times. Your depression does not define you.❤️

I've been clinically depressed for the better part of the last 10 years, including a couple of very severe episodes when I was suicidal. My doctor changed my meds several years ago during my last episode, and they seem to have helped, my depression hasn't been as bad.
But over the last few months it seems like something's changed, my life has become staying at the house while my wife goes to the office to support us. I've been retired on SSDI for almost 10 years now, due to osteoarthritis and neuropathy, so I'm in chronic pain. Nothing's changed, except for my hope of ever getting any better. I'm taking 12 prescription drugs everyday, and I'm still in pain.

I have an appointment with my doctor on Tuesday, and I'm going to tell him exactly how I feel. Nothing's getting any better, the pain's always there, and I'm basically just living without any kind of purpose other than to be in pain, and to keep the drug companies in business.
I have nothing to look forward to, just about everything that I have any interest in has been taken away from me. Financially we're screwed, when I "retired" in July of '15, we had to sell our home and live with our son and his family for 2 years. We'll never own a home again, and we only get by month to month, there's no money for any vacations, now or in the future.

The days, then weeks, and soon months fly by because every day is exactly the same, and now I'm starting to wonder, "what's the point?"
Talk to your doctor and see what they can offer to help get you through this tough period.

I’m so sorry for you. I feel every word you’re writing. I hope your doctor can help you as well. I feel that. I just don’t know where else to turn when I’m in this feeling of deep depression I almost committed myself yesterday to a mental health facility. I was that bad but I did send an email to a local outpatient facility and hopefully I’ll have an interview with someone tomorrow. They offer group therapy. They offer yoga they offer different remedies for depression. I have to look for something else because the way the brain just turns on me. It’s unreal that I’m the same person.

Don’t give up, and tell your doctor exactly how you feel. Hope you have friends/family to talk to, sometimes just getting our feelings out to a good listener helps a lot. I hope things improve for you, pray for a calm heart.

I did EMBP treatment and it was life changing for me. It is electromagnetic brain pulses. I went from depression and anxiety of an 8 to a 0-1, in under two weeks. I only did ten treatments (30 minutes each) at the Epic Brain Center in Reno, NV. I can not express how much that treatment change the course of my life. I could not have imagined a better, happier, or more hopeful outcome. My executive function was broken, I could not get out of bed without stimulants. It was a rough year for me. I would also say that listening to audiobooks and youtube videos and especially talking to AI either on ChatGPT or Grok they are both amazing and sooooo insightful. They have helped my with recipes, exercies, dog training, and a whole lot with depression and dealing with my Asperberger's spouse through my disease (MS). I am sad to hear you are depressed and I hope you find everything you need to make you start feeling better.

@yeja
Have you tried inpatient care and treatment?

Have you recently changed medications and/or have you had recent stressful situations that triggered your deeper depression? Have you been sick recently where a virus and weakened immune system have worsened your depression?

Have you had recent bloodwork and have you had your hormones checked?

I relate to how you're feeling and hope you find help and feel better. 💕