deep depression need help

I was on Prozac for 30+ years when it suddenly started making my sodium levels drop dangerously low, resulting in several hospitalizations. I have had to try several different medications before finding something that works. It has taken a year and has been very difficult. If you feel like your doctor is not listening find a new one. As you are struggling, use resources like crisis lines, warm lines, support groups, and supportive friends or family members. Above all, hang in there.

Hi Essie,
What are the elements you can think of as to why you feel that you do not want to leave the house? The house of course feels like a familiar safe place so that is understandable. I just want to lend support in a way to you & others who are drawn to this situation that going out causes depression & anxiety. I sense it derives from some hurt you suffered?
You and we all are feeling so much heightened anxiety. Remember we are all on this site because are too suffering in some way. We can never be in one's exact shoes, and sometimes not enough people are showing kindness when we step out of our doors, they assume things...so we just have to anticipate that and step 1% forward , keep breathing and believing in yourself!

yeja
I just read your post and when you wrote that your brain just turns on you it struck me so deeply. That's how I feel sometimes. Life passes day by day and Im fine and boom, seemingly out of nowhere I feel a deep despair and loneliness and nothing has changed, except my brain. Ive been in and out of therapy for many years, currently out, and on antidepression meds for years and mostly Im ok. But then a switch flips and im sooo sad, so alone. So far, eventually it passes but its horrible when its happening . I do understand what you're saying and for what its worth, you're not alone
Kate

Oh… I can really feel the weight in your words. When you say deep depression, I can almost picture that heaviness, the kind where even breathing feels like effort. I’m truly sorry you’re in that place right now.

I’ve been through something different but in some ways just as suffocating. Back in 2018–2020, I went through a massive financial collapse. It was devastating, and my wife, who had always lived with a sense of stability, broke down mentally in a way I’d never seen before. We had already been married for 14 years, with two grown kids, and suddenly everything we’d built felt shaky.

I was working double jobs, trying to rebuild, but I also realized something that probably saved us, I noticed early that she wasn’t just sad, she was mentally struggling. And the scary part? She stopped caring for herself completely. That was alarming for me.

I knew I was the one responsible for that situation, and the least I could do was be there for her in every way possible. So I became not just her husband, but her friend and, in my own clumsy way, her psychologist (though I’m not one professionally). I gave her time, I listened more than I spoke, and I kept reminding her that this dark place was not permanent.

She recovered before I bounced back financially. That taught me something: sometimes the mind can start healing before the circumstances change, as long as someone feels they’re not facing it alone.

So I just want to say to you, even though I can’t sit beside you right now, I’m here saying this: you are not alone. There is a way through, and sometimes the first step isn’t fixing everything in life, but simply having one steady hand to hold.