I have a hard time sleeping. I can never get comfortable, I'm in tears when everyone else sleeps around me. I have been diagnosed with spinal stenosis @27 , herniated disc, degenerative disc disease, annular tare?, sciatica and fibromyalgia. I also have headaches everyday of my life for years. I used to take topamax and it kinda helped for a few years and then it stopped and I started feeling very depressed on them so I stopped. I wake up stiff and just in constant pain. I try to live as if I don't have a problem, I want to enjoy my family. I figure I'm in pain no matter what so do as much as I can, while I can. I'm am however getting scared because pain is worsening. Pain always in my lower back and when I sit the pain radiates all Over my back, goes up the back of my neck and then my head feels horrible! I'm getting very forgetful , flustered, say things that arent right at the moment, just way off topic and hard to understand things. I was driving with my 13 yr old and I switched lanes and don't remember doing it, Stuff like that happens more and more. For a while now my head hurts so bad, getting nausea and dizzy even when I'm laying down. I would not want to take my life, my family mean to much to me but how can one live in so much pain?.. I'm hurting so much and I'm only 30, been 8-10 yrs in pain now and it's not getting any better but worst.