Bipolar Rage. Can't stop. Everyone's mad at me.
I have been kicked out of (dismissed from) 4 medical practices in past two years. Two were last week. My psychiatrist yelled at me, something he has only done once before. He was trying to help me obtain good medical care and I ruined it since I have been banned from seeing the doctor he referred me to. I feel really bad, but don't know how to stop doing this. I am already on 4 different psychiatric meds. He says this is behavioral and that I can control it, but I don't know how.
I cannot repair what happened and feel afraid because I have to see several more medical doctors for my physical health issues. I don’t know how to prevent another rage episode. I did not start out angry, but when the medical office staff and/or doctors said and did something to jeopardize my health, I snapped.