I know this will be a long read but please bear with me.
In 2014 I suddenly was stricken with extreme fatigue, my body racked with severe pain and strange swelling in the right arm. After fighting doctors until 2018, I was finally sent to orthopedics. Orthopedics, did the initial evaluation and found my tendons and muscles were crystalizing as well as full disc degeneration from C3 to the coccyx. He ordered an ANA panel which came back with a titer of 1:1250 with a nucleolar pattern. He diagnosed me with systemic sclerosis. I was then sent to rheumatology where he reran the ANA panel using a different method which costed me 3800 because the method he chose was not covered by insurance. It came back with dual 1:1250 nucleolar pattern and 1:80 speckled pattern. He said it was fibromyalgia and outright called me a liar and that I was drug seeking. At this point I had not been prescribed anything. He put me on gabapentin 600 mg nightly and said he would see me in a year. Even though it relieved the pain at night, the swelling and loss of use of my right arm continued. In the meantime, my kidney functions decreased and breathing issues started. I also started having blood pressure issues and through all the testing found I had latent TB. I was sent to nephrology, cardiology, pulmonology and infectious disease. Even though I have told all my physicians of the diagnosis, showed them the labs and many scans I am being treated with skepticism. Pulmonology does annual scans which show interstitial lung disease but says that since I am a smoker it is the smoking and cannot be scleroderma. Cardiology which I just fired says it is just all the drugs they have me on and the harden arteries are from smoking. I have a new rheumatologist who is trying but says it is unspecified systemic connective tissue disorder and probably rheumatoid arthritis because of my age. I also have been diagnosed with Hashimoto Disease, peripheral vascular disease, ground glass in my lungs, severe asthma and COPD. I realize I need to quit smoking but at this point, I am allowed nothing for pain and as much as I hate it the nicotine does ease the pain. My medications are many. I am lost to what my next move should be or what direction I should be going or if I should just throw in the towel. There is no quality of life and I need a new direction.