Anyone Else With PTSD?

Posted by Parus @parus, Jul 21, 2017

Curious

So…is the PTSD the root of this treatment resistant depression. Even the therapist does not know how to help. Geesh, doomed. I rarely see the therapist as it triggers me. Not good for either one of us. surely things are not as desperate as it seems. No, not suicidal! Clarify, always clarify!! Rather at wit’s end, but hey y’all this too shall pass. I abhor placating and here I am doing it to myself. A Vonnegut phrase is bubbling within…

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@lafaye

I’m on medication for other systoms that arise from PTSD
There is no specific medication for PTSD. I have been dealing with this condition for 4 years trust is an issue fears and anger are an issue depression swallows me up I don’t think the same I can’t concentrate or multi task
Like I use to the medication made me gain so much weight I’m now diabetic with high blood pressure for the
Most part I isolate sometimes I don’t want to live another day like this but I continue to hope I am a believer God
Helps me through the rough times I pray and read the Bible and find relief that way. I walk my dogs daily I find relief that way. I listen to positive music. I’m gaining more confidence little by little by little

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@lafaye

Yes, “little by little by little” is what caught my eye when I read your post. The small step approach is the best way through difficult mind sets. Thank you for reminding us of that.

Teresa

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did you read the Vonnegut one about the young man with psoriasis? was it rabbit, run? read it when I was 10 and it meant a lot to me. books were my salvation in that I found others who suffered….eli weisel’s autobiographical novel “night”was profoundly moving, read it at age 12 and finally found someone I could identify with in the protagonist. I felt like a holocaust survivor, didn’t tell anyone for 20 yrs or so that I deeply felt that way, because it seemed insulting to jews since I was not a jew. my therapist was jewish and said I was a survivor of torture (and Stockholm syndrome) without validation from any source so was as if all my fault or imagination. at 65, I am much healthier but still have attacks (had one yesterday) when something triggers me with anger or cruelty. less suicidal for sure. I don’t think there is much most therapists could do, but I know what I need when I can find it. when I see kindness, thoughtfulness, tenderness especially, and honoring other human beings, it helps me. when I receive that treatment it helps me even more. when I feel a sense of belonging, value, respect and acceptance, it helps me a lot…I get better. when I am with others whom I can trust to not betray me or EVER be cruel or mean, it helps me heal and grow. these things help me more than most therapy. I hope that those qualities of interpersonal contact are available to you, since social mistrust is common among us and is something often very isolating. it sure was for me, which makes it hard to have relationships or be around people at all…

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@pendragonart

did you read the Vonnegut one about the young man with psoriasis? was it rabbit, run? read it when I was 10 and it meant a lot to me. books were my salvation in that I found others who suffered….eli weisel’s autobiographical novel “night”was profoundly moving, read it at age 12 and finally found someone I could identify with in the protagonist. I felt like a holocaust survivor, didn’t tell anyone for 20 yrs or so that I deeply felt that way, because it seemed insulting to jews since I was not a jew. my therapist was jewish and said I was a survivor of torture (and Stockholm syndrome) without validation from any source so was as if all my fault or imagination. at 65, I am much healthier but still have attacks (had one yesterday) when something triggers me with anger or cruelty. less suicidal for sure. I don’t think there is much most therapists could do, but I know what I need when I can find it. when I see kindness, thoughtfulness, tenderness especially, and honoring other human beings, it helps me. when I receive that treatment it helps me even more. when I feel a sense of belonging, value, respect and acceptance, it helps me a lot…I get better. when I am with others whom I can trust to not betray me or EVER be cruel or mean, it helps me heal and grow. these things help me more than most therapy. I hope that those qualities of interpersonal contact are available to you, since social mistrust is common among us and is something often very isolating. it sure was for me, which makes it hard to have relationships or be around people at all…

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I don’t trust very many people. Only a few but still feel tense. I have been living like a hermit for years now and am over feeling that I have climbed every inch of my walls. I am also sensitive around people. Any mean or cruel words such as profanity almost triggers me into a panic attack. I feel like hiding when that happens. I trust animals. I trust my brother that’s about it. I like people but it’s hard to trust most if that makes any sense. I never told anyone about my years of being raped knowing they would identify me as that every time I saw them. It took years to open up but still keep it shut. Letting go, feeling free again is what I should practice more instead of living in the past. For now that’s all I know.

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@eight

I have someth8ing similar to PTSD IK have Disassociated Identity Disorder (D.I.D). I was diagnoses in 2011. I wen t to about eight different therapist who only wanted to give me medicine and send me home. My partner decided to take me to a Psychiatrist and that’s when I was diagnosed. I lose a lot of time, see things and hallucinate a lot. I have 8 personality. I take medication for depression, nightmares and insomnia

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I have Dissociative identity disorder, I have eight alters and whenever they come forward I lose time. I don’t remember anything once they decided to come forward. When most people lose time they remember what was going on but I don’t.

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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Hi, @swtbrooke — just thinking of you and wondering how things are going with your PTSD and challenges with your sleep due to it, and also with your fibromyalgia?

Also thought you might like to check out this thread on fibromyalgia so you can meet some of our members discussing this condition: http://mayocl.in/2Bq8pqT

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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@lisalucier PTSD is my constant companion. I was disappointed to realize the therapist has run out of ideas. At least I now have validation is I need it lest some other GP gives a diagnosis of Paranoid Schizophrenic I now know a lot of how I react is PTSD and this does help with the daily life. Also why negative stuff comes at me from long ago. Usually come when defenses are down and I am in a good place. I am not crazy after all. A tad on the eccentric side is all. Thankful to have art to keep me occupied as it is a distraction.
Thank you for checking in with me. It helps.

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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@parus

Yes, there are certain circumstances that give PTSD full reign, aren’t there? Have you ever heard of “HALT?”

This acronym recommends not getting too hungry, too angry, too lonely or too tired. Any of these can add to the development of a really bad time with PTSD.

I believe it was you who once posted that you often go to the store just to see a smiling face and other people. That is a great way to keep from feeling too lonely.

Teresa

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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@hopeful33250 Loneliness, pain and fatigue keep me captive. I will be seeing the pain specialist the end of this month. I am fearful of asking for help due to fear of appearing as drug-seeking. I need some help with the pain. The medications for fibromyalgia do terrible things to my mind. I had auditory/visual hallucinations. Pain is better. I also became impulsive which is not typical.
Loneliness is better than the alternative. Grocery store is safe as I am not personally involved.
I am frustrated the therapist was out of ideas. As I have thus stated-she was honest. I feel like a hopeless case. My issue.

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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@parus You are so insightful that I find it hard to believe that you are a “hopeless case.” Just because the therapist was out of ideas does not mean that there isn’t somebody that can help you. You are creative and articulate – you will find answers along the way.

Teresa

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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@hopeful33250 Can be a lonely journey. Could be worse. I do not think she meant I was a hopeless case. Think I was too far out of the box again.

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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@parus

Personally, I’ve never like boxes – I prefer to be a bit distinctive – something we have in common!

Teresa

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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@hopeful33250 Thing is I do not try to be distinctive. Have always walked ti the beat of my own little drum and cannot continue walking to the beat of another’s drum. We are who we are…
I am tired and thinking about calling it a day at 7:30 p.m.

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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@parus

Rest well

Teresa

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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Nite, Nite…

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