Anxiety and Depression: I just want to feel normal again.

Posted by tmf0 @tmf0, Nov 24, 2018

For the last 10 weeks my anxiety and depression have been at a level that I’ve never experienced. My life has completely changed in such a short period of time. I am constantly nauseated, I hardly get out of bed, I have no desire to see or speak to anyone, my mind is continuously spinning with irrational thoughts, I even canceled Thanksgiving and I can go on & on. I just dont know how anyone can live like this. I’m not living but merely existing. It’s a battle every minute of every day. I just want to feel normal again.

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So do i hardly ever do I want to go out I have a job and its hard to go I need help so bad

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@merpreb

@parus- I don't understand this either. It sounds counterproductive. By the way you are not a failure. Please understand this! Not wanting to endure physical pain is smart, protecting. It's the opposite of failure and guilt.

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Thanks @merpreb for reminding me I am not a failure. Those old messages like to taunt me. When you were sharing about your mother I could see and hear mine. Nothing was ever her fault and I never once heard her say she was sorry nor ever admit she was wrong. Enough of those memories. I am sorry you endured the same mother I did. I never realized my mother could travel that fast. 😉

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@smithr

So do i hardly ever do I want to go out I have a job and its hard to go I need help so bad

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@smithr The first thought I have is have you talked to your family doctor?? How long have you been feeling like this?

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@parus

Thanks @merpreb for reminding me I am not a failure. Those old messages like to taunt me. When you were sharing about your mother I could see and hear mine. Nothing was ever her fault and I never once heard her say she was sorry nor ever admit she was wrong. Enough of those memories. I am sorry you endured the same mother I did. I never realized my mother could travel that fast. 😉

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@parus- Good morning. There's a saying that I love. "Don't be afraid to stop suffering."

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@lioness

@parus The rheumatologist I saw gave me Cymbalta made me crazy I lost groceries from it ,Savella didn't help Lyrica so so That's when I went on the fibro network Google it There is alot of new information about fibro You have to do your own research Drs.havent believed us and still don't In the long run it is up to us ,we know how we react to meds ,please do your own research so you can get relieve from the pain Bless you Parus I'm pulling for you

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@lioness– I agree with your suggestion a rheumatologist should be the next step for @parus. Explaining how meds effect you @parus can help with deciding a treatment. It's another option. Please don't kill the idea before you try it.

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@merpreb @lioness I always appreciate input. There are no medications out there. I already know this so why go through trying that again when I know what they do to me??? Doctors don't believe me. Right now I don't believe me either. I do know that terrible head pain is back and so far it does not seem to be improving. This is my reward for being compliant once again.
@merpreb I know you mean well. I am in this alone and I am thankful for the support I get here. I have to be able to drive safely and currently because of head pain this is not possible.
Surely physical therapy would not do this!! I would be told I am making it up and I don't want to hear it and be told I am not trying because I cannot do what is recommended which is PT.
I am trying.

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@parus

@merpreb @lioness I always appreciate input. There are no medications out there. I already know this so why go through trying that again when I know what they do to me??? Doctors don't believe me. Right now I don't believe me either. I do know that terrible head pain is back and so far it does not seem to be improving. This is my reward for being compliant once again.
@merpreb I know you mean well. I am in this alone and I am thankful for the support I get here. I have to be able to drive safely and currently because of head pain this is not possible.
Surely physical therapy would not do this!! I would be told I am making it up and I don't want to hear it and be told I am not trying because I cannot do what is recommended which is PT.
I am trying.

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@parus Would a gentle massage help you? Would a long soak in a hot tub with epsom salts help you feel better? Trying to think of things that might make your body feel more comfortable without subjecting it to a lot of overstimulation. A gentle massage with soft music by someone who cares and whose energy you can feel in a beneficial way might do wonders for you. Just thinking off the top of my head at this point. Sure wish simple words with help you feel better.
Ginger

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I totally understand how you feel. I wake up with severe anxiety. It lasts all day with panic attacks too! I don’t get out! It is too hard to visit or just get out of my house! I want my life back!

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@csimpson55

I totally understand how you feel. I wake up with severe anxiety. It lasts all day with panic attacks too! I don’t get out! It is too hard to visit or just get out of my house! I want my life back!

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HI, @csimpson55 – you'd mentioned you would have a new therapist in 2019. Has that therapist recommended any medication or therapy for the anxiety and panic attacks?

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@gingerw

@parus Would a gentle massage help you? Would a long soak in a hot tub with epsom salts help you feel better? Trying to think of things that might make your body feel more comfortable without subjecting it to a lot of overstimulation. A gentle massage with soft music by someone who cares and whose energy you can feel in a beneficial way might do wonders for you. Just thinking off the top of my head at this point. Sure wish simple words with help you feel better.
Ginger

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@gingerw I would imagine a gentle massage would help. My wallet wouldn’t tolerate thus. Nice to think about though. Bummed as I am missing so much of life. Many of us are. Just in a funk over return of head pain. Maybe it will be better tomorrow. I know my invisible friends have rough times too. ☹️

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