Importance of focusing on Positive with Depression & Anxiety.

@sears
That’s what happens when an irresponsible person abuses drugs. Propofol wasn’t the only drug he took, what about all the other sedatives that he took prior to the propofol. What other outcome would you expect. Although these medications were prescribed by a doctor, irresponsible as he may have been,Michael Jackson decided to take these medications and therefore must except some responsibility.
Jake

@jakedduck1 So agree people that use these drugs without Dr instructions will die

I have fought depression all my life. I believe it started when my sister who was 18 months older than I was hit by a car when she just turned three. I was a year and a half when it happened. My mother always favored her. She was petite, had beautiful curls. I was fat, had straight hair. People used to say about my sister: "isn't she cute, so adorable, beautiful curly hair, then look at me and say "oh what happened to her? It thought I must be really ugly. Then my mother and father fought all the time. He drank and then would get violent with her. I had a sister who was 8 1/2 when I was born and two brothers, 14 and 18. When we were older, my sister told me, she never saw my mother hold me or pick me up in my whole life. We had a beautiful 19 year-old-girl staying at our house for a while and she held me, loved me. I was totally in love with her. I called her mommie Rose. I loved her but one day she left and I didn't know she was never coming back. I think maybe my grandma or someone said, you should tell her that she is never coming back because I was sitting by the door waiting for her to come home. She was MY mommie. My sister had our mom, so I had one--for a while. I was so depressed, I have always had all kinds of health issues. I was always full of snot and couldn't breathe. I am an old grandma now and still have problems with my sinus and breathing. I know what it is to be depressed. I have lost dogs, people, husbands to other women. Maybe I will write that book. Seven surgeons told me I need back surgery, now I need nose surgery, and I need esophagus surgery. I don't want any of it. At my age, I am hibernating (that is so depressing) because of the virus. To all of you who are depressed. I recommend watching really good inspirational movies, watch comedies, watch Christian movies. I watched on Netflix I think it's called Frankie and Grace. I watched Michael Douglas and I don't remember the old man but it is so hilarious in parts, I actually laughed out loud. by myself and the dogs. I think it's the Kowinsky Method. You can look it up on your smart phone. I got my phone from TV. It cost $100. and all the minutes and texts are in it for a year. I think it's great. I don't know how to do all the things it can do but I love asking Google questions. BTW, I have seen my baby pictures and I was quite adorable.

Lily, I just wrote practically a book on here. I want you to read it. I am so very sorry you had to give up your dog of 14 years. I know you think she thinks you deserted her but I am sure she knows you love her dearly and can't take care of her at this time. Dogs are extremely intelligent and I am sure she is. God bless you and heal you. He is our healer, our comforter. He will never leave you nor forsake you. My big sister and I went to church for several years together and she had great faith. Both of my sisters had great faith in God. Now they are with him. I miss them terribly. I miss so many people. Cherish the ones you have. Start a journal and write your blessings in it. If you want to vent, write that in a different section of the journal. That is important to get out, too.

@woogie Thank you for writing that to me. What a life growing up. How could a mother do that to you! No wonder you have depression. Have you tried a counselor, one really helped me after my mom did suicide. After that the one if loved so much, he ran a lot, but decided I was the one to be his wife. He was killed in a car accident 11 days after we were married. I was only 18, also a close friend was killed with him. I am married again for 49 years. I'm probably lucky, because my first husband drank a lot and that is probably what caused the accident. I hated God then and drank a lot, but I'm back with God, he is my strength through depression.
Are you on any meds? I'm on Lexapro 20 mg, Lamictal 200mg, and Klonopin, which I usually take at bedtime only.
You have had a tough life and I hope you have had some help getting you through these all full youth. Let me know how you do. Blessings, Jeanie

Hi @caf, wondering how you are doing on your Effexor? Still having side effects?

@caf
Hello,
I’m afraid you’re going to have to continue to wonder about your brain chemistry since there are no definitive tests to measure it although there is a researcher who claims to be getting close, of course I think we all know what close in the research world means. During the development of anti-depressant drugs by the pharmaceutical companies they mentioned depression was caused by a serotonin
inbalance without proof and it has stuck ever since however no one knows what causes depression or any mental illness. If your doctor suggests you have a chemical brain inbalance ask him to prove it. If he says blood or urine test they are unreliable. if you’re just be getting Effexor Side effects off and go away within weeks to a few months. I hope they soon find the cause and the best treatment.
Wishing you well with your treatment,
Jake

I only stated that Michael Jackson’s cause of death was irresponsible use of Propofol. No argument here.

Remember in being positive, that God's Word says in 1Thessalonians 5:18 - "in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." I continually try to remember to be thankful mentally and to keep a journal of thanks to God for everything. It graduallly re-programs my mind and spirit!  

I know my father and mother are the beginning of my depression. I first was never held as a baby (my older sister told me). I was told by my grandmother that I wasn't wanted. Then I went home (across the street) and asked my mother if I wasn't wanted--she said "no, you weren't wanted". My heart sank and I asked her why did you have me if you didn't want me? A small child is brokenhearted. She said you won't understand--maybe when you are older, you will understand. Yes, I do now. My mother was married to an abusive, alcoholic, who was a woman chaser. We never knew what kind of mood my father would be in when he walked in the door. I cannot tell you how he was with me. I just may have to write the book I have always talked about. I mean he hit me in the head until I saw stars. Then I married two men who were replicas of him. Charismatic, abusive, the list goes on.