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Importance of focusing on Positive with Depression & Anxiety.
Depression & Anxiety | Last Active: Nov 7, 2022 | Replies (623)Comment receiving replies
I know my father and mother are the beginning of my depression. I first was never held as a baby (my older sister told me). I was told by my grandmother that I wasn't wanted. Then I went home (across the street) and asked my mother if I wasn't wanted--she said "no, you weren't wanted". My heart sank and I asked her why did you have me if you didn't want me? A small child is brokenhearted. She said you won't understand--maybe when you are older, you will understand. Yes, I do now. My mother was married to an abusive, alcoholic, who was a woman chaser. We never knew what kind of mood my father would be in when he walked in the door. I cannot tell you how he was with me. I just may have to write the book I have always talked about. I mean he hit me in the head until I saw stars. Then I married two men who were replicas of him. Charismatic, abusive, the list goes on.
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@woogie I'm sorry you had to go through all that no wonder your depressed Have you found some counseling to help or have you been able to find someone yet
@woogie As I read your post it saddens me to know some of what I experienced as child in your writing. The abusive home environment both physical and verbal, the alcoholic father and out of control mother, similar harsh words of my being born. It is no wonder that I dated and married men with alcoholic tendencies.
I thank you for your honest writing for it helps me put the pieces of my life's puzzle together as I need to make sense of those things that one doesn't understand as a child but affects one's choices as adults. If only I could have connected the pieces earlier in my life, gotten mental help earlier and in turn better choices and support.
You have great courage!
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@woogie Glad to hear from you, but sad all you had to go through. They do say woman that have abusive parents, marry abusive men. Blessings to you. I hope you can get over the bad thoughts and maybe a book would help. Prayers to you.