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Loss and Grief: How are you doing?
When my dad passed away several years ago I lost my keys 4 times in one month, I would wake up at 3 a.m. several days every week feeling startled. Sound familiar? These are reactions to grief. Grief is a very personal experience - everyone grieves differently – even in the same family because the relationship of a father is different than that of a wife or a granddaughter. Unfortunately, often we grieve alone. Sometimes we don’t want to “bother others” with our grief, and sometimes friends and family tell us that we should be over it by now. After all the person we lost was ill for a long time or was very old and “it was their time” or “they are in a better place now.” Sound familiar?
Grieving is often described as the "work of grief." It does feel like hard work doesn’t it? Grief can be difficult because of the many factors related to the loss. If the loss followed a prolonged, serious illness you undoubtedly did some “anticipatory grief work” prior to the actual death of the loved one. If the loss, however, was sudden, i.e., accident related, suicide, a result of crime, etc. the sense of grief is coupled with shock.
The relationship that you had with the loved one also affects your grief experience, i.e. was your relationship close or had it been strained? Do you feel guilt that you were not closer or do you feel guilty because you don’t feel you did enough to help while your loved one was ill?
Sometimes anger plays a part in the grief process. Did your loved one get poor medical treatment or a wrong and/or late diagnosis? Did your loved one not follow your doctor’s orders with regard to their health (diet, smoking, attention to meds or exercise)? All of these factors contribute to your experience of grief.
Also, some losses are not so evident to others. These would include a miscarriage or a stillborn. Sometimes these losses are not considered as relevant to others as the loss of a person who has lived a longer life. In the case of a miscarriage, others might not even be aware of your loss.
You may think of that person on anniversary dates (their birthday, date of their death) or you might think of them constantly. Unfortunately, sometime people say things that can multiply grief. Have you ever heard someone say, “you should be over this by now?” or “I had a similar experience and I’m OK.” Well, most likely their similar experience was not the same as yours. Thinking you should be over it might compound your grief with feelings of guilt or frustration.
Whether a recent loss, or a loss you experienced a long time ago, let’s talk about it. Whatever your experience, I'd like to hear your stories and together find a way to relocate that loved one so that we can experience peace in our lifetime.
Together let us support each other in our grief journey.
Teresa
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You have had a lot of losses, close together - I'm so sorry that you had to experience so much in such a short period of time. You are to be applauded for all of the efforts you made on behalf of all of the people that you lost.
It is very common to feel that we didn't do enough when someone was dying. However, as human beings we have only limited time, energy, resources and abilities to care for others and still take care of ourselves. You have to give yourself permission to do what you can and realize that none of us is "super woman" that is only in the movies.
You are obviously very sensitive and care about people and that is too your credit. However, that sensitivity can make it hard to accept our humanness as well. So give yourself a break and realize that you probably did what you could and you were appreciated for who you were at the time. Is it possible to connect with a Grief Support Group? Often funeral homes in the area will have a list of such groups in your area. Give a call and see what might be available for you - I'm sure it would help you over this difficult time.
Please keep posting as you can, I am glad to get to know you better. Remember: Take it easy on yourself!
Teresa
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4 Reactions@kdawn32, This is probably not news to anyone other than me, but I was watching some church TV yesterday and the speaker explained grief as a form of separation anxiety. That made perfect sense to me in that when I quit drinking, I had separation anxiety (grief) and also when I stopped smoking. Anything that has become a "friend" and is taken away causes the same reaction even if it is an inanimate object.
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5 ReactionsWhat a beautiful note, Theresa. I wish I had received that 35 years ago when my mom passed. I have to be in a good place to write about my grief and will respond soon.
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3 Reactions@2011panc, I'm still listening to you panc. Just took a walk after spending an hour on the phone with my brother Phil, he says he's going to come up here.
Bet you'd like my yard, there are thousand of daffodils which bloomed early this year starting in January, now there mostly gone. My place is open because I knock down all the oaks and pines which sprout like weeds here, I like open, lot's of people here let the trees grow. I like it open so the people can see all the daffodils, mostly ladies slow down and look, plus it reduces fire danger.
One year a friend was getting married and they needed flowers so I said, take what you need, thousands of them. Deer don't eat them so the old timers planted here. My place was built in 1930, it's a Montgomery Wards kit house with an extension for a large bedroom.
"brutally honest" I certainly don't think honesty is brutal, may seem like it some times like, I have to stop smoking cigars because...I never intended it to become a habit, just a thing where I'd smoke at my other cabin up on Love Creek Rd., that's in the Arnold, CA, area. You can google to when you come to a fork and the cabin is right there. Hardware girl owns it now, she got a great deal on it, and she's a great hardware chick, knows the business.
I'll come back to your post, just feeling melancholy right now, but going to heat up some soup and get better.
Thanks, and going to read your post again, thick skull maybe. I don't know, stubborn?
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I'll look for your post. Please write as you feel able to do so.
Teresa
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1 Reaction@harriethodgson1, "grandchildren gave me hope..." That sounds nice. Hang onto that big piece of hope and focus there. I've got a book called "Man Thinking". That's what I'm trying to do here.
My friend came by this morning and brought me coffee and a breakfast sandwich, plus her toddler son. Just saying about the little one because he's a towhead just like my sons, plus I like little kids. They stayed a couple hours and then she had to get to work...stacking firewood. I do that for myself only. I'm lazy. Hah, not really just stacking firewood to sell sounds like boring work.
Used to work hard building decks and stuff, that all disappeared for different reasons.
"On the other hand, if you want to be alone" I can live alone but I still like people. Mezi's visit helps because she's going through the same thing with her life, husband didn't come home from work. At the grocery store she tried to make believe it didn't matter but you and us here know better. She needed a listener and I was happy she came by. Joe is showing signs that he misses her and I'm rooting for them both because I know they are a match. I'm repeating myself but years ago Joe came by and said Mezi and I broke up. I didn't say much about that but he knew because I did say something like, "Oh,sorry." Brilliant I know but I was also thinking, "Yeah, Mezi's pretty cute and I bet there are lots of guys who would like hooking up with her." They made up that time.
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2 ReactionsMy twin grandchildren, one male, one female, are 26 years old now and still give me hope. Even better, they understand what my husband and I did for them after the court appointed us as their guardians/caregivers. We are profoundly blessed.
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6 Reactions@littleonefmohio, Sounds pretty rough to me. At first you were calm. I'm wondering about a while latter when it sinks in. Some form of shock or disbelief, like you said to the paramedics, "Why are you not trying to revive him...". That's why you're here and these people are great. This is the first time I saw your name, stay around for a while because 'here' has helped me a lot. Littleone, I'm a bit stubborn but I can still listen. You said "I knew God was listening".
I have a little friend who's going through this kind of stuff, her husband didn't come home from work...
I like your name Littleone.
@kathy4385, Just guessing here...You are sharing with us and even if we just 'love' your post and don't write doesn't mean you haven't reached us. Maybe you're being "useful and needed." right here for the moment. I like to quote some songs because whoever wrote them had some insight else where did it come from. "Time has a way of changing everything".
How long did it take for me to say, "I'm not drinking my whiskey anymore."? At least two years with the VA, Mary, and finally two AA guys came to my home and they thought I was a waste of time. They told me later. I called them over when I was drunk enough that I could hardly remember the evening. They stayed for a while and I know I argued with them. Just took time. Thankfully I was not a mean drunk as in yelling and screaming at my wife. Still mean but, you know! Wrong!
Take care!
Mark
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2 ReactionsThank you for responding. I will be sticking around for awhile. I am sorry to hear about your friend. I hope she is doing ok.
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