Loss of my husband...am I losing my mind? This is not who I am.

My life stopped April 2,2026. I got up around 4:30 AM and went into the den/kitchen as usual and found my best friend and my husband of 62 years laying on the floor covered in blood and uncoucious. He was transported to Savannah to a brain specialist. He had fallen and hit his head on something causing a severe brain bleed and he never came to and passed away the next day around 2PM. I have blamed myself since because I did not hear him fall and it is causing me great depression and taking it's toll on my body physically. I am having crying spells, hot flashes and even breaking out in a bad rash. I am trying so hard to dwell on all the good times we had together and the two children we were Blessed to have. I am Praying hard for strength and asking for your prayers and support.

My life stopped April 2,2026. I got up around 4:30 AM and went into the den/kitchen as usual and found my best friend and my husband of 62 years laying on the floor covered in blood and uncoucious. He was transported to Savannah to a brain specialist. He had fallen and hit his head on something causing a severe brain bleed and he never came to and passed away the next day around 2PM. I have blamed myself since because I did not hear him fall and it is causing me great depression and taking it's toll on my body physically. I am having crying spells, hot flashes and even breaking out in a bad rash. I am trying so hard to dwell on all the good times we had together and the two children we were Blessed to have. I am Praying hard for strength and asking for your prayers and support.

@judgeret
I'm so sorry that you went through such a sad ordeal with your husband. That must be very hard for you to cope with. My husband died of lung cancer 2 years ago and it's so sad to continue alone. We were married for 30 years. However I'm sure it's harder for you since your husband's death was so unexpected. Don't feel guilty about not hearing him fall. It wasn't your fault. It was just an unfortunate accident. I can tell that you loved him dearly and that means more than anything. Remember all the good times you had with your husband and be grateful for them.

It's good that you have turned to God. That has helped me also during this time. Things will get better eventually. I'll say a prayer for you. If you need to talk, I'm here.
I wish you the best,
PML

@judgeret Please don’t blame yourself. You had no idea something like that would happen. If you didn’t hear him that is just a fact but was nothing intentional on your part. You know you would have done anything to prevent it but that wasn’t an option for you. You didn’t cause it and couldn’t have stopped it. I lost the love of my life after 59 years of marriage. The grief is so hard. It’s a sign of how much you loved him. I found some grief support groups helpful and did a lot of reading about grief. People will give advice but no one knows what you are going through unless they have been there. I had no idea until my wife died ten months ago. Please go easy on yourself and find help, even if it is professional help. I know you have many good times to think about from the past, like I do, but your grief is trying to deal with the now, and your brain and body need help now. I wish you the best and will pray you can find support. You’re going through probably the hardest thing a person can go through. God bless.

My dear husband died in April. I don't see a light yet all I see is him lying on the floor calling my name. I didn't hear him calling for me before he fell, how I wish I had. The pain of losing him is overwhelming.

My dear husband died in April. I don't see a light yet all I see is him lying on the floor calling my name. I didn't hear him calling for me before he fell, how I wish I had. The pain of losing him is overwhelming.