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Loss of my husband...am I losing my mind? This is not who I am.
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My dear husband died in April. I don't see a light yet all I see is him lying on the floor calling my name. I didn't hear him calling for me before he fell, how I wish I had. The pain of losing him is overwhelming.
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@catherine55 I had something similar when my first husband died over thirty years ago. For months I could only see him in a coma in the ICU, hooked to a respirator. These experiences are just so searing. I want to be encouraging, though. Now I really do remember the good times, with him laughing and eating or playing music. You have had a tremendous shock. I'm sure folks are suggesting things, and a grief group and counseling really helped me. You've mentioned guilt, and certainly your circumstance is uniquely difficult. But I want to share that I had tremendous guilt too--not based on anything specific, but more like survivor's guilt that I was still alive. And I had to give the order to take him off life support. Thinking of you in this difficult time, and hoping things start to ease up a bit. Do you have any activities that help, even for a few minutes?
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@catherine55 I truly can relate to your pain, same here. I will be praying for you as well. God Bless!