Anyone Else With PTSD?

Dear Parus, this is peach. It is not your fault for having the trauma of ptsd. This comes from me peach who also has had PTSD since birth. My earliest recollection as a child was when I was approximately three years old. I woke up in a dark room on a bed, I was gasping for breath and chocking. I heard women's voices coming from another room. It was my grandmothers and my mothers voices. They were arguing. I smelled my grandmothers smell on the sheets. Now all was ok. My grandma was here. My mother tried to strangle me. This was only the beginning of a most terrible,terrible life. Both mental and physical torture and pain. And this goes even deeper than one can imagine. (I have always wanted to write a book about this.). It never stopped and went on until I ran away. I think being treated this way, at home, at work in the army at war, etc. This is the brain being whipped into submission with extreme pain. My story goes deep and I am sure this affects every other person under these many circumstances. Some how keep up your hope, pray, do anything to keep holding on. With the most endearing love for you, Peach

Dear Hopeful, I think the treatments go on till you die. Tomorrow I will be 82 years old and am still needing treatments. I am also waiting to hear from my doctor this Tuesday if I have ovarian cancer.

Oh boy, you are right. To keep myself going I watch television, listen to the radio. do crossword puzzles and jigsaw puzzles. Also as many other things to do as possible. Keep as busy as possible so when you do rest you will enjoy it. Peach

I also have PTSD. To keep myself busy I bought coloring books that are very popular. The time goes so fast because I shade and think about the colors, how it would look, I look at the clock, hours have gone by. Helps keep those memories or some of them away.

Hi Peach, my thoughts are with you. Please let us know about Tues.. May I ask what kind of treatments are you getting? Have a restful evening.

@peach14144 We will be thinking of you on Tues. Please let us know, if you'd like to share, what the Dr says. We care.
Ginger

Yes, I will write again Tuesday. Perhaps the doctor will need to send in a sample, (biopsy). I have so many other illnesses that in a way I accept this one to join the rest of the gang. Remember, you must some how keep up the humor. Than you all as this caring does help me and the others. Peach

Oh!, bye the way I have forgiven my mother and do understand the sadness and misery in her life. To me it is healing.

@peach14144 Yes, humor is a good thing. I tend to go to humor to lighten a super serious situation, when it is appropriate [sometimes it has backfired, though!] It often takes the edge off, and eases a lot of tension in the room with doctors. I tell my drs that my body is having its own little civil war, since everything is autoimmune.
Ginger

@parus. Hey Parus, I have been away, dealing with issues and I didn’t know you had bladder cancer. I am so sorry. But if I know you, this will be a fight - with you as a victor. I don’t know how often you’ve had to do the spread legs bit but, for me, the more it’s done, the easier it gets. Parus, I dearly hope I haven’t said the wrong thing here. I’m always cautious to not offend an ill person. You’ve been a help to me, I hope I can help you by praying........,.,Karen