I want life to end & don't know what to do. Been here?

@bbteach12 , welcome to the group. and yes life can be whatever you choose it to be . Of late i have had to change up my attitude and try to be more on the positive side of things and it is hard at 69 to just make changes all of a sudden but have a caregiver that is taking me out to do things when we have days that fit going someplace. She has this get up and change how you look at things and it will help. so far its a hit and miss kind of thinking things through b4 i cat on them. Recovering from TBI injury that was a tumor in the brain and has taken me two years to get to where i am now and can change things for the better. if you have someone with a better outlook on how things are going , maybe try to find a couple positive aspects and go with that. Have a blessed day and feel free to ask questions of me. i am still healing after a nasty brain surgery.

@bbteach12
Hi Ginger,
I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression for a long time. Even when things are the most difficult, getting out into nature for a long walk-without headphones or any distractions always brings me joy, and a reason to be thankful.

Thank you for your response.

Per @papersoup: I lost a parent to suicide and I can tell you ALL that I would never do that to my immediate family! It’s such a helpless feeling. This may sound ridiculous but why not get a pet?
So many people’s lives have been changed by having a reason to live in a nonjudgmental animal. There are so many rescues that need a loving home and dogs are easy to love! Please just think about it. Look up the SPCA in your area and at least go and look at them…never from a pet store or a breeder! Then do a bit of research about breeds…labs are great dogs!

As a retired psychiatrist, there is something going on here that is very wrong but I can’t tell what it is. Have you not felt connected to any of your therapists? Who is doing the prescribing? A psychiatrist or PCP?
It might be better if you could find a psychiatrist who also does depth psychotherapy—one stop shopping. Meds and therapy via one doctor.
Also, there are 2 new treatments for depression that have no side effects and no down time. They are TMS and an application of TMS called SAINT. Both are highly effective and mostly covered by insurance. You may be able to stop the meds if you respond to either of these treatments. There are also new treatments in the pipeline. You don't say where you live but perhaps your best bet would be to contact a dept. of psychiatry at a university medical school. If you live near California, I’d contact Stanford in Palo Alto because that was one of the places the initial research on SAINT was I done. I believe Harvard also participated in that research. But really, most any psychiatry dept. should be able to help you find where this kind of help is available, if they don’t offer it. Most major cities offer it—but I think it might be safer to go through a university medical school so you know you are getting exactly what I’ve described. The contact people at Stanford are Ian Kratterer, Ph.D and David Carreon, MD. Good luck!
I’ll check back here every so often if you want to update us.

I’m sad to he’s how unhappy you are. I’ve also struggled for years with like feelings. Joining AA has made me realize that I anm not alone with feelings of depression, anxiety and self-loathing. Almost everyone n “the rooms” feels or has felt that way. It’s a huge support group where you can express your feelings of despair. We’ve all been there. You’ll be stunned by how many members feel just like you and will be willing to make friends with you and help you find joy in life. You don’t need to believe in God. There are zoom meetings in case you’re too shy to start with in person meetings. But I suggest you do as it will be easier to connect and feel included if you meet face to face. It was a huge relief not to feel like a lonely failure. I’ve also been in and out of therapists’ offices with some success but zoloft has helped a lot.
Your life is worth living and perhaps by not comparing your life to others’ you’ll realize how much you have accomplished and what a valuable person you are.
I’ve been discussing my problems with ChatGPT and it’s been a cheap, easy and effective method for finding help!

I'm at the opposite spectrum. I am 77 y/o with End Stage COPD and spend most waking moments of the day trying to keep the congestion clear so that that I can breath! Air hunger has got to be the worst possible feeling in the world! Therefore I would like to be free to make the choice to peacefully transition. With that Said the young lady that is 27 has not, I believe received appropriate treatment and assessment. Way to young to feel like not wanting to live. Being in Health Care Myself I thoroughly agree with the Psychiatrist, she need to seek immediate help from a larger teaching facility near her. For some reason, someone has missed the boat. Please seriously follow-up at an institution that can assist you. Me.....i've lived my life and am ready to transition!

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“I am sad to hear”

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Thank you for your response.

@5148branelly Yes, I have been w Stanford Psychiatry Dept first w Dr Po Wang 20 yrs+ and now w a colleague MD there. Your reply to poster was spot on to contact Stanford or a University medical ctr Psychiatry Dept. The poster needs to be w better care which university medical has always been the case for me. UCSD and Stanford. There are many drs/ psychiatrists not as effective for evaluation or up to date treatments.
I had a kidney transplant w Mayo Clinic AZ 7/35/23. I have side effects w anti rejection meds to prevent organ rejection that include increased anxiety, etc. Not even Stanford specialists understands except wonderful pcp. And few counseling therapists in Bay Area cost of living since pandemic started 2020.
I do hope poster reaches out to a university medical ctr Psychiatry dept.