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The aftermath: a different state of personality: What do I do now?

Posted by jonnyboy @jonnyboy, Nov 28, 2025

Well my long Covid symptoms finally wore off yet after 4 years of brain fog my intelligence has changed, it dropped too many IQ points… it seems like I’m different me after all these strange effects on my body. That long Covid can just grasp on and pull someone down and out, you can end up a completely different you… and the happenings of those years that did nothing of goodness for this? It just stays, what do I do now? I feel like a whole different person and no one even comes close to understanding it……

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drbf | @drbf | Dec 20, 2025
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I feel locked up in my body and my mind... I can't be myself anymore because I'm immunocompromised and I can't chance another covid infection that would worsen my long covid even more.
I'm unhappy and more irritable, partly because of LC and partly because I don't get to *be* my happy self anymore: no more sportsteams, no more theatre/ballet/concerts with friends, no more organizing boardgame nights... Interacting with people for an hour or 2 hours would make me happy. I don't experience these happy times anymore, I think I have become grumpier.
I am/was a criminal defence lawyer for legal aid and I miss my clients, my colleagues, even the Office !
I'm so angry sometimes. I never used to be... It doesn't help that I am trans and after 15 calm years being one of the first openly trans lawyers, this wave of anti-trans hatred is surging in many places. For no good reason.

I did go ice skating for 10 minutes last week, had to rest for 5 hours afterwards, but that did make me happy and the few people on the ice were very kind and helpful, one young man even tied my laces (hard to do on hockey skates).
Talking to the other people on the ice made me feel me, so much so I burst into tears a couple of times. I catch glimpses of myself.

I hope we all get to catch glimpses of ourselves, more often... in the new year. Good luck everyone.

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@fse1973ap

I have had a couple of friends come to my house and that has helped immensely.

Even phone calls can help with isolation.

I understand how you feel. I can't get sick again, either.

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h2998sc | @h2998sc | Dec 20, 2025
In reply to @fse1973ap "I feel locked up in my body and my mind... I can't be myself anymore because..." + (show)
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I feel locked up in my body and my mind... I can't be myself anymore because I'm immunocompromised and I can't chance another covid infection that would worsen my long covid even more.
I'm unhappy and more irritable, partly because of LC and partly because I don't get to *be* my happy self anymore: no more sportsteams, no more theatre/ballet/concerts with friends, no more organizing boardgame nights... Interacting with people for an hour or 2 hours would make me happy. I don't experience these happy times anymore, I think I have become grumpier.
I am/was a criminal defence lawyer for legal aid and I miss my clients, my colleagues, even the Office !
I'm so angry sometimes. I never used to be... It doesn't help that I am trans and after 15 calm years being one of the first openly trans lawyers, this wave of anti-trans hatred is surging in many places. For no good reason.

I did go ice skating for 10 minutes last week, had to rest for 5 hours afterwards, but that did make me happy and the few people on the ice were very kind and helpful, one young man even tied my laces (hard to do on hockey skates).
Talking to the other people on the ice made me feel me, so much so I burst into tears a couple of times. I catch glimpses of myself.

I hope we all get to catch glimpses of ourselves, more often... in the new year. Good luck everyone.

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@fse1973ap It will get better.Drink lots of water,try to eat a few times a day at minimum.I would(and did)start taking NAC...add one more to the recommended dose.Your body's damaged.But not complete if you can skate and feel emotions.Talk to your doctor about it first.Just so there's no problem medication wise.You'll come out of this....God Bless.

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