Caring for my husband with late-stage lung cancer

Posted by turtle115 @turtle115, Mar 25, 2020

My first time here. My husband has lung cancer that has spread to liver, stomach and pelvis. Originally showed spot on lungs and liver August 2019. He is now 78 and has been a stroke survivor for 20 years...aphasia, walked with cane, no use of right arm. We decided not to proceed with cancer Treatments. But after Christmas things took a turn for the worse....he can stand but Can only move a little to the wheelchair bed or chair. We had CT in January which showed lung cancer, liver, stomach and pelvis. He is DNR so we wait. He is home and Hospice comes here twice a week. He has had a sore on his chin for over a month and recently, about the size of a dime, on the back of his head. He is not a complainer..... he is coughing up thick, white phlegm a lot now. He also has many tumors on his back...more every day, not open soreS but I see And feel them and some getting larger. Any one have thoughts that the sore on his head and face that maybe it has spread to the brain? How long can one survive like this? He is ready mentally and spiritually to leave this earth.....it is the waiting and watching him lose weight that is so hard. Any thoughts, help or prayers will be appreciated.

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@turtle115

Thanks for the support from everyone. Andrew passed away this evening.....peacefully.... we had a couple bad days....but glad to know there is no more pain and suffering. So thankful for the 56 years we did have. May he soul Rest In Peace.

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I am so very sorry to read this news, @turtle115 I am sure this is going to be a very challenging time -- please stay in touch and let us know if those of us who have lost a spouse can answer any questions or offer support.

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@turtle115

Thanks for the support from everyone. Andrew passed away this evening.....peacefully.... we had a couple bad days....but glad to know there is no more pain and suffering. So thankful for the 56 years we did have. May he soul Rest In Peace.

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Condolences, thoughts, and hugs to you and your family. You will always be a part of this family ❤️

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@rmftucker

I am doing well. Casey had been in the care center for just short of three years after being diagnosed with Alzheimer's Disease and vascular dementia about 3 prior to that. We have great memories after 65 years of marriage, and also been through a lot with 5 children, 6 grandchildren, 9 g-grandchildren and 2 g-g-grandchildren. Two of my children and a granddaughter live close so see them frequently, but everyone else is scattered from Washington State to Florida, as happens with many families these days. Our son who lives in Arkansas has recently been diagnosed with stage 4 stomach cancer so that is a concern, but we will get through this. I'm so thankful for my wonderful church family. We are having Sunday Service live through Facebook, and a daily 5 minute prayer service at 6 pm Live on Facebook. This will continue at least until this COVID-19 pandemic is over. We have had Live Face book and YouTube services filmed and archived for several years, but only the sermons. Now they include music contributed by many of our talented members. Makes it much more meaningful.

Being unable to meet with friends for lunch several times a month and going to DAR and church women meetings has made the days lonely, but I am keeping myself busy writing notes to the shut-ins and visiting on the phone with others, offering hints to parents on Facebook of ideas I used in my 24 years of teaching lower elementary students and my own family, to occupy those busy little hands when they have to stay home.

I miss Casey like everything but know he is in a better place. The past three years have been very difficult for him and me,and I never told him I was going home, just that I had to go take care of his little dog, Suzy. He would have wanted to go home with me otherwise. He was a very busy and active man, always working in the garage or yard, playing pool almost everyday with friends at the community center, visiting neighbors, eating out with me, family and friends,etc. It was very difficult seeing his personality change so he did not see anything good in anybody and always finding fault. Refused to continue going to play pool even though I said I would take him after he couldn't drive anymore. I have great memories that will carry me through.

God is probably keeping his busy or he keeping God busy.

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Thank you for sharing those beautiful memories with Connect, @rmftucker. How lovely to know something about Casey and your years together!

You have undoubtedly found a way to fill your days with meaningful activities. I applaud you for that! Best wishes as you continue on (and take care of Suzy)!

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@turtle115

Thanks for the support from everyone. Andrew passed away this evening.....peacefully.... we had a couple bad days....but glad to know there is no more pain and suffering. So thankful for the 56 years we did have. May he soul Rest In Peace.

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@turtle115- Good morning. I'm wondering how you and your family are doing since Andrew's passing? Are you resting and eating well?

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Yes, thank you. Since I live in an insisted living place our meals are brought to us three times a day.....so, at least there is no worry about food. We are confined to our rooms but I can go outside, alone, when I want to. It has been only 12 days And I feel as he has been gone so much longer than he has. Is that strange to feel that? I am thankful it was all downhill since after Christmas......so looking bank we were truly blessed he didn't suffer much longer than he did. My prayers for all who battling cancer.

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@turtle115- Hi! I'm glad that you are being well cared for! It's not uncommon to have any type of thought at this time in history and especially with losing your husband so recently. Your feelings are very normal. The sense of time, I think, dissipates after losing someone because you are probably thinking about all your wonderful, lucky years you had together. Grief is a funny fellow, it can make your mind foggy and dim reality.
https://www.refugeingrief.com/2018/04/10/grief-crazy/
https://www.mayoclinic.org/healthy-lifestyle/end-of-life/in-depth/grief/art-20045340
How is your health? May I ask, how did you handle a funeral for him?

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@turtle115

Thanks for caring. I had to call hospice last night.....severe pain in his head.....forehead area. Increased morphine and gave another pain medicine earlier than I would have. Took about 15 or 20 minutes and pain eased. Hospice said the cancer has probably spread to his brain. Better today. Right now it is to me like the Coronavirus....Wish we knew when the end would come. I don't want nor want to see him suffer.....All in God's hands.🙏

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My husband has advanced COPD and stage 4 lung cancer. He just had his first treatment on dec. 11 this year. He only weighs 105 pounds.. I know how hard it is to watch them waste away and how scared they must be. My husband went into respiratory distress last sunday night and was taken by ambulance to the hospital. He will be discharged tomorrow. All he keeps saying is that he wants to go home. It is heartbreaking. Today, at the hospital, while watching him sleep, I also prayed that when God takes him that he does so when he is asleep and can go peacefully. It is too hard to watch them suffer and I don't know if I have the strength to do it, although I must. I will pray for God to give us both the strength we need.

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@denise96

My husband has advanced COPD and stage 4 lung cancer. He just had his first treatment on dec. 11 this year. He only weighs 105 pounds.. I know how hard it is to watch them waste away and how scared they must be. My husband went into respiratory distress last sunday night and was taken by ambulance to the hospital. He will be discharged tomorrow. All he keeps saying is that he wants to go home. It is heartbreaking. Today, at the hospital, while watching him sleep, I also prayed that when God takes him that he does so when he is asleep and can go peacefully. It is too hard to watch them suffer and I don't know if I have the strength to do it, although I must. I will pray for God to give us both the strength we need.

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I am so sorry. I know how painful this can be. It is good that he will be discharged to be home. I wish peace and serenity for you both. Pls stay in touch here.

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@denise96

My husband has advanced COPD and stage 4 lung cancer. He just had his first treatment on dec. 11 this year. He only weighs 105 pounds.. I know how hard it is to watch them waste away and how scared they must be. My husband went into respiratory distress last sunday night and was taken by ambulance to the hospital. He will be discharged tomorrow. All he keeps saying is that he wants to go home. It is heartbreaking. Today, at the hospital, while watching him sleep, I also prayed that when God takes him that he does so when he is asleep and can go peacefully. It is too hard to watch them suffer and I don't know if I have the strength to do it, although I must. I will pray for God to give us both the strength we need.

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Adding prayers for a gentle landing. And adding prayers for his loved ones. May you find comfort in memories of a better time.

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@denise96

My husband has advanced COPD and stage 4 lung cancer. He just had his first treatment on dec. 11 this year. He only weighs 105 pounds.. I know how hard it is to watch them waste away and how scared they must be. My husband went into respiratory distress last sunday night and was taken by ambulance to the hospital. He will be discharged tomorrow. All he keeps saying is that he wants to go home. It is heartbreaking. Today, at the hospital, while watching him sleep, I also prayed that when God takes him that he does so when he is asleep and can go peacefully. It is too hard to watch them suffer and I don't know if I have the strength to do it, although I must. I will pray for God to give us both the strength we need.

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I am hesitant to raise this issue because I am the one with cancer and I am the one who learned about and have chosen VSED. I don't know if anyone would be comfortable suggesting VSED to the patient. VSED stands for Voluntstily Stop Eating and Drinking. It speeds up the. dying process considerably and may be harder for the care givers to observe than for the patient. I suggest you google VSED and see if it might be appropriate for you. I chose hospice and palliative care only. I am currently not ready for VSED at this time, personally; I am in no pain and I am using my given time to write memories anfd do genealogy. Peace and love for everyone at this trying time.

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