Need help! Depression and anxiety

Posted by pirateking @pirateking, Jul 22, 2016

I don't know where else to go without going to a hospital. I've always had issues with depression and anxiety. It is tough to deal with, but I have a grasp of what it is at least. I've been taking 10MG of Lexapro and 1-1.5 MG of Klonopin to treat it. My psych doctor died in January and I started with a new doctor that upped my Lexapro to 20MG and put me on Buspar for anxiety.

She then decided to take me off the Klonpin. She had me go from 1-1.5 to only .5 a day a month ago and then cut me off. My anxity was already starting to increase that month, and a few days after I stopped the klonopin I faced massive panic attacks among a ton of other issues. It took some begging for help until she eventually put me on .5MG of Atavan but I don't think it is working.

My current symptoms are this horrible brain fog that is impairing my basic functions. I forget things easily, I can't concentrate. It feels like I've literally got dumber. I am clumsier. I keep almost walking into poles and today I almost got run over by a bus. I'm beyond irritable. I almost attacked a man on an elevator because of his breathing, and I've never had such violent thoughts before. I've had brief sucidical thoughts that I had to talk myself out of because I rationally know I don't want to do that.

When I stretch my neck it hurts. It feels like my neck or back is violently ripping in two. I'm having out of body experinces. I am sitting at work and suddenly I am not sure if I am dreaming or not

I also have headaches, I'm pacing constantly. I am having muscle spasims, twitching, my hands tremble.

This is terrifying. I've never felt like this in my entire life and I don't know what is going on. Is it the Buspar? The Atavan? The lack of Klonopin and should I go to the hosptial? My doctor isn't around on the weekends. Any help will be appericated.

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kellieb58 | @kellieb58 | Aug 12, 2016

i"am going to another physic Doctor.ON THE 16TH of this month.So now it"s a waiting game Thank you for your help

kellieb58 | @kellieb58 | Aug 12, 2016

Always worried about the day tomorrow and now worried if i get an attack at my sons wedding a year from now.

Minnie1971 | @lesbatts | Aug 13, 2016

In reply to @kellieb58 "i"am going to another physic Doctor.ON THE 16TH of this month.So now it"s a waiting game..." + (show)

Good luck Kellie with your new doctor I hope he/she can help you.

nene58 | @nene58 | Aug 14, 2016

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

Alyse Brunella | @alysebrunella | Aug 14, 2016

Hi @nene58, and welcome to Connect. I'm so happy you reached out. Being involved in a community like Connect allows you to talk with other who share similar experiences and offer advice to people who also need it. That said, I moved your message over to this thread on depression and anxiety so that you can meet some members of the community that may be able to better understand what you're going through. Please meet @pirateking, @wolfer1975, @lesbatts, and other members who are in this discussion.

cherylrose | @cherylrose | Aug 15, 2016

I am new to this group. I just started taking Fetzima which is a replacement for duloxetine. Does anyone have experience with Fetzima?

kellieb58 | @kellieb58 | Aug 15, 2016

I"m sorry i don"t know anything about that meds i"m not even sure what they work on/Sorry.

Ali Skahan | @aliskahan | Aug 16, 2016

In reply to @cherylrose "I am new to this group. I just started taking Fetzima which is a replacement for..." + (show)

Hi @cherylrose, welcome! I haven't seen other users mention the use of Fetzima, but here is some information I found on it: http://www.mayoclinic.org/drugs-supplements/levomilnacipran-oral-route/description/drg-20061242

How are you adjusting to your new prescription?

kellieb58 | @kellieb58 | Aug 17, 2016

Thank you I went yesterday wow what great doctor he looks right at you when hes talking to you.He really listened he really did. I was amazed with him the physic Doctor was great. wow is all i can say.So glad i found him..He works with me and my counsler at the same time. Thank you again replying.