How did you wean off Metoprolol?

@healthytoday Perhaps I misled you - I did initially have a book agent during my sister's long illness (cancer) who encouraged me to write a novel. I had already published a story in a NY magazine. She obtained an editor at Simon & Shuster who read and critiqued the memoir, liking it, but wanted me to lengthen it and add more characters. I was redoing it for about 6 months or so and was unfortunate as the editor had to retire and care for her father in Charleston during the time I was at work building the novel. Then too
my agent retired so I was whammed at all ends with getting to a publisher. Just to say, I both wrote it for distraction and I did intend to
have it published , if possible. Also, from New York publishing people I've touched base with - first novel memoirs are tough sells - I was encouraged to work on the mystery novel which I had already started. They are popular now. We all have different stories, I guess.

I think memoirs are marketable and have been in the past, but you didn't write it as a marketable piece it seems to me. You wrote it as a way to express your feelings and issues, and writing is a good way to get them out of your system. I have about 35 years worth of journels. I do ponder their fate. I am getting closer to the idea of taking them to a blm campground this summer with a fire pit, and having a goodbye fire. I'd like to let go of the past though I have plenty of cool drawings in them. I'm not a writer.

I'm 71 with an annoying heart problem (afib etc) and want to explore completion with all my life's loose ends. Therefore, I just made a donation to an antique store of misc antiques and some small paintings. I have given many misc objects here and there. My main purpose now is to place valued objects in the right place. Three years ago I sent ancestral photos to Historical Societies in Indiana and New York. They were appreciate to receive the donation for there collections. Jung says the end of life should be a process of completion. Not that I'm going to heaven tomorrow, but placing these things holds meaning.

I wrote a short story when I didn't understand my husbands actions etc. It really helped.

as to publishing a first novel - a memoir - quite difficult. I tried two agents - one sent me a lovely rejection letter - seriously - She thought it was well written,
but it didn't "grab" her. Memoirs are not marketable so I'm told so I began to write a mystery, but stopped writing as I find it too confining. It keeps me indoors too much - and I need to walk and do more activities. I could self-publish but I find that a bit egotistical and costly. I'd want my memoir/novel published on it's merits, not as an ego trip. All is in abeyance at the moment.

Hello @sapphira
Writing and/or keeping a journal is a great idea. Writing a novel was quite an undertaking! If you don't mind me asking, was it published or was it just for your own personal purposes?

writing can help a lot - I wrote a novel during my sister's illness. It was a form of distraction for me after visiting and caring for her. Helped me a lot during that time.

Probably need more than meds, a support group, writing poetry expressing your feelings, writing a story, drawing some pictures.

Thank you Teresa, I will think about that discussion group and if I want to be involved.

Of course, I agree with you. Just remembering how the doctor warned me about metoprolol. Be well.

Hello @sapphira

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your sister and the traumatic events surrounding her death. It is hard to even imagine how you must feel. I would encourage you to join the Mayo Connect discussion on Loss and Grief. You can find the discussions at this link, https://connect.mayoclinic.org/group/loss-grief/.

I think you will find some very compassionate Members in this group you will be encouraging and helpful to you as you seek to live your life without your dear sister.