I have MDD and anxiety and am now, apparently, "Medication Resistant". Dr recommended Spravato but we ran into a stumbling block because I am 65. Also it is almost impossible to get Medicare or Supplement to pay for it. Switched focus to Ketamine infusions. No insurance covers.
I am, though, willing to pay out of pocket for either, even though it would be a stretch on the budget because I am desperate for help at this time.
I feel as if I can't breath at times and as if I will shatter if anyone touches me.
I am a Chemical Dependency Counselor and love what I do, but it takes everything I have to do my job each day. I am struggling. Then I get home and I have nothing left. The "smiling, compassionate, loving" me disappears and I am an absolute bitch to my husband and son. I can pull it together for my 7 year old granddaughter who can always make me smile (outwardly at least).
Has anyone done TMS treatment? I have an appointment for a consult. I figure if it doesn't help, I can move on to one of the other two.
I apologize for rambling and moaning. I have always been one of the "helpers" even with my bouts of anxiety and depression. I just don't know if I can continue to juggle the masks and continue.
I am currently on: Lexapro, Welbutrin (450 mg), Effexor, Trileptal, Trintellix and Trazadone. Crazy # of drugs, right? No way to even begin to know which, if any, are working…it's all such an experiment and I've been on the merry-go-round way to long.