I have all the right answers in my head, regarding my chronic pain yet, it's so hard to apply them day in and day out. Exhausting. I'm very stifled in this body which carries through to my life and overall well being. I'm bored and lonely…it's isolating when you have difficulty being a part of normal civilization due to various health conditions. I desperately want to be what I used to be…someone who could physically accomplish the simplest of tasks, partake in normal family functions like a dinner or a small birthday party. Im so frustrated by hurting 24/7and deeply mourn the loss of what I used to be. I work desperately to keep myself focused on what I CAN do verses what I can't but, when I repeatedly get shot down by my diseases amd diagnoses, disappointment is inevitable.
I know I've come to the right place… others here share my struggles. Thank you for letting me fall back on you. Today I'm just at my wits end.