Hello! Keep in mind you are not alone. God never leaves us or forsakes us! I’ve been there and I can tell you finding the right doctor and treatment can be discouraging but just pray and believe that this will not kill you but will make a better version of you. Sometimes I feel the same but taking one day at a time is the key. And of course know your body and listen to it. If something is going to hurt bad stop at the right time and do whatever makes you feel relaxed and comfortable. Sometimes doing some stretches, taking a hot shower, being thankful for the small things and finding a new hobby is just the right thing to do on a daily basis. Stay focused on the possibility that things will get better for you and that everything will work for your good!! Be encouraged and stay focused on the little things you can do by yourself!