I’m am really low. Medicine, cbt therapist, and hotline keep from the bottom. Result of a conflict with my daughter which she insists she can only handle online in writing. It started last November with her being offending by some things I don’t remember saying because it was many months old and angry with me for offering to pay for her dental work. We got through that mostly by saying I’m sorry many times and them giving up. Things okay until after Christmas celebration, then she was “quiet at me “. In March I had another blast from her because I sent her a gift with an apology note. She would not take my call when I wanted to talk to her about it. So, I sent her a text that was probably too confrontive in standing up to her.
Now she is quiet again. I am plagued by self criticism and hatred. I go through memories of everything that was stupid that I said or did.
I do take a bike ride every day, and make time for art and writing to keep from being overwritten by cleaning and dehoarding. Thanks for listening.