Scared of meds for anxiety

That’s great. What medication?

When I had an anxiety attack that stopped my breathing before dawn making me jump out of bed...and threw up some stuff seconds later but seemed like eternity getting my breathing back, I ASKED the doctor how to make sure that I won't it again at night, I was offered to sleep overnight under watch in hospital. Of course I slept well.

Later as I was offered CBT, and I said, I know it , and can do it myself, I did find out that it was my fretting about my five full-time years of my devoted research, writing, editing that no one seemed even interested in looking at it much less publishing, that caused my deep anguish into physical signs.

I Grew Up (I guess it was ten years ago, I am 80 now) that in life, our hopes are Shattered, trusts destroyed and accidents can change our lives for ever. But We Forget. Once I realized that (call it self-CBT) I think I'm maturer. To take care where I can as in food, activity/play, and using time that makes me feel good about myself (purposeful living) seems to help me sleep well and have a body that gets me an independent living without meds or health experts which still leaves me Looking for a few Friends everyday...without one yet,

I hope we all find our few friends who can make our lives wonderful when it feels hopeless.