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Scanxiety overtaking my life

Posted by lhatfield96 @lhatfield96, Apr 10 12:22pm

Hi all. I hope everyone is well. I need some support and I don't know where to turn as my family does not understand what I am going through and the intense feelings associated with receiving a cancer diagnosis. I am not coping well to be honest. I had surgery to remove a 9mm stage 1A1 adenocarcinoma from my right lung last August. The surgery was deemed a success and curative. I had my first follow up scan in December and that was clear. I have another coming up this Tuesday and I am absolutely wrecked with fear and anxiety that it has "come back" or they will find something in the other lung. I don't know what to do or how to get through this its like I have lost all sense of rationality about this. I keep thinking this is going to kill me. Has anyone dealt with these feelings and increased anxiousness close to scans? How do you cope and keep functioning? I know I need to see a counselor and am working on that but I wanted to come here first. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and offer any experiences/support-it is greatly appreciated.

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cmcguire10 | @cmcguire10 | Apr 16 1:56pm
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@cmcguire10 Cindy, I don't think your prayers are weird at all, but rather filled with faith! The tourmoil that Ihatfield96 is feeling, I understand and I am sure you do too. Perhaps all of us that are first told we have cancer share her experience. It was more than I could handle until I came to the place you came to, "Thy Will Be Done." Fear has torment, but Faith brings us to peace. To the peace only our Creator can give us, because we are convinced He loves us.
Lot's of people claim to have faith, but a test such as cancer will work that faith we proclaim, into the depths of our being. We have a God that knows something about sufferring, therefore He is not far off from our fears and sorrows. We surely can lean on Him because He went before us, and even now He is with us. I will in agreement pray with you for
Ihatfield96 and all that endure the difficult sufferring cancer brings. When I go into those scans, I like to recite the 23rd Psalm. What you say that some might find weird, I find to be the most positive sharing. God Bless and may He help Ihatfield96 to enter that peace!

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@chrispie Amen! So well said!🙏❤️

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cmcguire10 | @cmcguire10 | Apr 16 1:58pm
In reply to @lhatfield96 "@chrispie Bless you. Such a beautiful thoughtful post. You described the FEAR, turmoil and torment to..." + (show)
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@chrispie Bless you. Such a beautiful thoughtful post. You described the FEAR, turmoil and torment to a T. It's crushing sometimes.I have faith, I believe in our awesome God but I have to work on some things and letting go is one of them. I talk to him everyday about my struggle with this. Thank you both for your prayers and I will write down the 23rd Psalm!! I went for my scan on Tuesday and both the surgeon and pulmonologist said that my scans looked "GREAT". I am so grateful to HIM!!

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@lhatfield96 SO AWESOME to hear about your great looking scans! So Happy for you! 🙏🙏 God is Great, God is Good!✝️

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chrispie | @chrispie | Apr 16 2:07pm
In reply to @lhatfield96 "@chrispie Bless you. Such a beautiful thoughtful post. You described the FEAR, turmoil and torment to..." + (show)
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@chrispie Bless you. Such a beautiful thoughtful post. You described the FEAR, turmoil and torment to a T. It's crushing sometimes.I have faith, I believe in our awesome God but I have to work on some things and letting go is one of them. I talk to him everyday about my struggle with this. Thank you both for your prayers and I will write down the 23rd Psalm!! I went for my scan on Tuesday and both the surgeon and pulmonologist said that my scans looked "GREAT". I am so grateful to HIM!!

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@lhatfield96 Oh Blessed, Praise the Lord for your good report! Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God. You know Jesus said, "Remember the patience of Job." Job went through so much that he did not understand, but in the end He was greatly blessed. May you be also, and know that He Loves you, and you are in the palm of His hand! We each take one day at a time, we are babes, then children, then grown up..We all continue to grow and in growing you will have the gift to encourage other's. God Bless!

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lhatfield96 | @lhatfield96 | Apr 16 3:26pm
In reply to @chrispie "@lhatfield96 Oh Blessed, Praise the Lord for your good report! Faith comes by hearing, and hearing..." + (show)
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@lhatfield96 Oh Blessed, Praise the Lord for your good report! Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God. You know Jesus said, "Remember the patience of Job." Job went through so much that he did not understand, but in the end He was greatly blessed. May you be also, and know that He Loves you, and you are in the palm of His hand! We each take one day at a time, we are babes, then children, then grown up..We all continue to grow and in growing you will have the gift to encourage other's. God Bless!

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@chrispie I lost my husband in 2020 and my mom in 2023. I feel so alone in this.

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chrispie | @chrispie | Apr 16 4:33pm

I am so very sorry, you have been through so much. Your losses are so recent. and I am sure they were so very close to you. So you know I understand, I lost my husband to the Vietnam war, I was a 16 year old bride and a 17 year old widow. I brought my mother to my home, and cared for her with hospice, until she passed. My mother was my best friend. Though there are now many years that have passed since, the sadness always remains in their absence, but not without the promise of joy, with the thought of seeing them again.
As difficult as all this was, I was left to do more living....and the same with you. I am sure that there is a purpose for all things, though we don't always understand. His ways are above our ways, and His thoughts are above our thoughts. So if we can accept that He loves us and that He is with us, we can do all things through Him. He sent us The Comfortor so you are never alone. If and when it seems you are alone in your
sadness and distress, Draw near to Him. People will fail us, because we are all so imperfect, but the Love of God never fails because it is Eternal. Your tears are precious to Him.
His struggle was so difficult, He sweat tears of blood. He understands.....and what you don't understand tell Him. Believe it or not, you have the ability to now have the fruit of compassion for so many others in their sufferrings.
God Bless you dear, remember He considers the sparrow. You are of much more value than many sparrows!

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