PTSD - I think I've had it my whole life

Posted by kimspr3 @kimspr3, Jun 22, 2019

HI, SOMETIMES I THINK I WAS BORN WITH PTSD. MINE STARTED WHEN I WAS A CHILD HEARING SCREAMING, YELLING, FOOD BEING THROWN WHEN FATHER DID NOT LIKE THE FOOD, VIOLENCE. HARD TO OPEN UP AT THIS TIME. IT HAS EFFECTED ME MY WHOLE LIFE. COULD NEVER KEEP A JOB BECAUSE AFRAID OF AUTHORITY FIGURES. I'LL STOP HERE FOR NOW.

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Colleen Young, Connect Director | @colleenyoung | Jun 23, 2019

Hi Kim,
There are several members who have found Connect to be a safe space to talk about life-long (or seemingly life-long) PTSD. I hope that you too will feel invited and safe to talk more when you're ready and able. In the meantime, I'd like to show you the other discussions about PTSD on Connect:
- Anyone else with PTSD https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/anyone-else-with-ptsd/
- Seroquel for anxiety, social anxiety & PTSD https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/seroquel-for-anxiety-ptsd/
- Dealing with PTSD https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/dealing-with-ptsd/
– Any women members here that have PTSD, and Acute Clinical Depression? http://mayocl.in/2bW3DGQ

Kim, when you experience something that triggers your PTSD, what do you find helps?

kimspr3 | @kimspr3 | Jun 23, 2019

OMG, Colleen, Thank You! I have too much time on my hands. Memories just come to the forefront. adding this it's like living in a trap! Hidden away. I always liked creating, for the home or if a friend asked me to help them for their home. Social Workers, Psychologist, friends suggested I write a book about my life. A lot to think about, do I want to go there? I want help children if I did that. So now I color and do not realize how the time goes. Thinking about shading, colors. Big help. Caring for my 4, 4 legged kids. 2 dogs, 2 cats. I only can leave my home if my husband is not at work. A.A. is not something you are born with, it is something "THE WHITE COATS" DID AND THEY ARE PROTECTED. Spine surgeons, Neurosurgeons, It is not just coming from me, many nurses, other Specialists in the Medical Profession! Many, Many will refuse not to address! Never 1 Piece of Paper, never a any of those Drs sat you down and allowed you to make a choice! than do your research, Yes/No your decision before your life's dreams are taken away. A friend in need is a friend indeed. I found out. Goes for Cancer also. I hope I answered your question? I jumped around a lot. Thank you for listing!

Teresa, Volunteer Mentor | @hopeful33250 | Jun 23, 2019

Hello @kimspr3
I appreciate you sharing on Connect. After reading your first post, I can certainly understand the reality of PTSD in your life. I would encourage you to read the links that @colleenyoung listed in her post. You will find others with similar thoughts to your own. I hope you find them helpful as you read the posts and share more of your own experiences.