Psychological effects of living with neuropathy

Posted by domiha @domiha, Oct 17, 2023

This is more of a whine than a question. I get so tired, not just physically but psychologically, of living with the neuropathy and the limitations. All of us here are dealing with different combinations of symptoms and to differing degrees. Some know what caused the neuropathy, while others have no idea of the origin. But in the end, we are all in the same boat. My neuropathy appeared after a lumbar laminectomy a year ago. I had such pain in my legs for the year before my surgery that the neuropathy could have been there then and I wouldn't have been able to distinguish the difference. I was SO hoping the laminectomy would fix me... and it DID take away the leg pain that was limiting my walking. I can walk again.... though I'm a bit wobbly... and I do need to take breaks every so often. But I sometimes think the psychological toll is worse than the physical. I'm 72 and have always lived with anxiety and depression issues. How I would love to just find ACCEPTANCE of the fact that this is MY LIFE at this point.... and do what I can and the neuropathy be damned. And I do try to go and do as much as possible. But wherever I go, I take my feet with me.... and thus all the symptoms that remind me that I will never be "normal" again. As they say, "misery loves company," and I wonder how some of you deal with they psychological. Anyone else feeling like this? I see a therapist, but he can't fix my feet. I go to PT, but that seems to have reached it's peak for improvement. I know there are so many people with much worse infirmities out there.... but somehow knowing that doesn't make my situation any better. Thanks for allowing me to vent. Best to all!

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@julbpat

Pain, pain, pain. My steroids gotten taken away by a new rheumatologist, and none of my four doctors will prescribe them. Pain and it’s subsequent side effects are wearing me down. So I’m whining this month. But only to myself and this forum!
I read this again recently, and don’t even know who to credit it to, so feel free to borrow!
“I do things at pain levels that others wouldn’t even consider moving at, because if I don’t, I wouldn’t have a life. This doesn’t mean I’m having a ‘good day’. It only means I was able to be stronger than the pain for part of the day.”

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Wow. Couldn’t agree with you more!!!! If I don’t get up and deal with the pain I wouldn’t have a day at all. Pain is 24/7 and always changing. I may be out and about, but it doesn’t mean I’m feeling well. I’m just dealing with the pain. It’s ever present!!!! I do what I can do, when I can do it. Never heard of SFN until I was diagnosed. But knowing what you have doesn’t make the pain disappear. You just know why you’re in pain. It took 3 years for a proper diagnosis. Three misdiagnoses and 3 useless surgeries only made matters worse. The medical community seems clueless on how treat this disease. I’m considered idiopathic, so there are no targets for treatment. It’s all about pills!!! And nothing seems to work very well. So I deal with the pain and try to keep a smile on my face.
But it’s not easy. And it will probably just get worse in time. I haven’t given up just yet. Seeing a new neurologist in January. Appointment made in February!! Eleven months to just get a consult. But I’m told she’s the best. Time will tell.

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@danamw73

I use it on a daily basis. But, doesn’t really help any with pain, only helps me to relax a bit better and lighten up my mood. Tried topical but, it didn’t help at all. Kind of made it more painful because it had a tingling affect.

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I agree, doesn’t help much,like you said.
If I take a Tramadol 50mg tab it helps,but it also makes me sleepy.
I take one at bedtime so I can sleep without foot pain.

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You have my empathy and understanding.
I, too, whine……..in my head. (I can’t imagine that anyone wants to hear my tale of woe over and over again, so I try to keep it to myself.)
That’s why this on-line forum has become an important part of my life. I read and think about the similar struggles so many others are facing. All who post on this topic have become my “virtual” friends. You, too, understand the destruction that chronic, severe pain wreaks in one’s life.
Thank heavens we can whine here, because I think that it’s a natural expression of our frustration.
I know I’m not the stoic “warrior” who is often written about in inspirational essays and memoirs.
I hate this constant pain, and I’ m grateful for a place where I can express that.
Whine on, we’re here and we understand.

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@budjo611

Very well said!!! Myself? I was diagnosed with idiopathic Small Fiber Neuropathy 3 years ago. But early symptoms led me to 3 different podiatrists. My feet hurt terribly!!!! So you go to a podiatrist. Right? Misdiagnosed 3 times which led to 3 different USELESS surgeries!!!! On to the neurologists. It took the third one to recommend a skin biopsy to rule out SFN. Unfortunately, it came back positive. He seemed surprised!! Then prescribed horrible medications that help only minimally. My primary care physician always asks about my depression. My response is always that it depends on my pain level. Which is almost always high.
24/7. I’ve tried some antidepressants along with either gabapentin or Lyrica. They are horrible!!!! They mess with your head and do little for pain.
So are you whining? You’re entitled to whine. No one can really understand what we go through on a daily basis. It’s truly debilitating, and hard to accept. I was very active and athletic prior to my first symptoms. Skiing, hiking, tennis, you name it, I was good at it!!! That was all taken away literally overnight. I was forced into early retirement and live a very sedentary life which I wasn’t built for. So am I depressed? You’re damn right I am!!!! It’s been almost 7 years, and to be honest, I’m pissed!!!! My wife is the only one who REALLY knows the pain I feel everyday. Friends don’t understand why I don’t want to participate in certain activities. They see I can walk, but they don’t feel the pain I feel. Even simple activities are overwhelming.
So whine away!!!!
I know what you’re going through.

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I understand!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have no life anymore! Husband does not understand, feel alone. Family sadly is gone. We were All so close, I miss them a lot! He helps me but emotionally nothing. I get out of bed around 12, 1:00. Pain, spine from failed Laminectomy, pain, Small Fiber Neuropothy, Sojgrens. Hip surgery. Sitting very painful.
Due to the Neuropathy the nerves bowel area very difficult passing stool, Urinate constantly 24 hours a day!

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@centre

I could have written your comment- same symptoms, same diagnosis, same epidurals, same surgery, same results. My PN “journey” started with a herniated disc when I was 64, am now 70. This is cold comfort, but as I get further away from the dividing line between life before and after, I find I focus a lot less on the PN, it’s just “me”. Now it’s automatic to do all the little adjustments needed to be safe while doing anything. I’ve already dropped the activities that are unsafe- no playing badmitten with the grands, but red light/green light on the paved driveway is fine. I can’t take them canoeing or hiking (which I loved), but we camped this summer at a cabin (steps with a rail, cots) and to an amusement park (paved pathways, plenty of benches). Without even thinking about it, you think things through and make the adjustments needed.
I do regret I didn’t do more in retirement of the outdoor things I enjoyed, but who knows what lies ahead in life. I did spend the 5 year anniversary of the dividing line in a big soup of whine, there is a lot to mourn. This group is great, people really understand. Ray really means it about that big comfy chair.

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I had a failed Laminectomy 2008, Morristown Medical Center, NJ.
Surgeon REMOVED : S-1. L -2 L -3 L-4 L-5 NO FUSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WENT TO Johns Hopkins PAIN MANAGENENT, HE MADE ME WORSE, HIT A NERVE I SCREAMED, I WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE MILD SEDATION!!!!!!!!!!!! DUE TO THAT I STOPPED DRIVING, MY WHOLE LIFE CHANGED! NEITHER MORRISTOWN M.C. OR Johns Hopkins ADMINISTRATION CARED WHAT SO EVER! HOW DO YOU GO ON? PAIN HAS TAKEN ME. I HAVE A PAIN PUMP FOR THE SPINE PAIN. TRAZADONE FOR NERVE PAIN, HYDROMORPHONE 4 TIME DAY, NOTHING

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To Domiha and others,
Staying in the day has helped me stay away from fearing the future and mourning over lost vigor and independence. Counseling to deal with that grief and fear also helped. My physical therapy includes Aquatherapy at a nearby university pool, along with working against gravity another day at a university clinic with my PT. Because the PN was probably an autoimmune reaction to either spinal fusion surgery for stenosis, anesthesia, or infections unrelated to the surgery, I have also been prescribed immunoglobulin infusions, and they seem to have helped along with PT. My pain has lessened over time, and for that I am grateful. I have a supportive husband, good family and friends. But it is here that we can support one another in a bewildering and “orphan” disease, with few champions of knowledge and in its infancy in research. Check out the Foundation for Peripheral Neuropathy for the best information on that research, and on help for us coping with this multi-faceted disease.

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For the first year of my neuropathy which seemed to have started out of the blue, I cried to myself everyday. Until I was cried out. I did find that Cymbalta helped somewhat. But, take heart, many of us on here are waiting for completion of WinSantor’s clinical trial on the use of Pirenzepine gel. So far, results seem very promising. It is hoped that the Pirenzepine gel will stop progression of neuropathy and help regenerate nerves. Phase 3 of the trial is coming up.

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I have neuropathy in both feet and calves. It did not show up until I have had to have 3 back surgeries in less than 1 year. My feet feel like stones (no feeling) and having balance issues. I still want to play golf and enjoy this life. Anybody have any suggestions for me. I use laser light on legs and feet at present and a lot of B12 and ALA acid for B12 to absorb.

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@shanegibbs

I have neuropathy in both feet and calves. It did not show up until I have had to have 3 back surgeries in less than 1 year. My feet feel like stones (no feeling) and having balance issues. I still want to play golf and enjoy this life. Anybody have any suggestions for me. I use laser light on legs and feet at present and a lot of B12 and ALA acid for B12 to absorb.

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Welcome @shanegibbs, Sorry to hear your neuropathy started after your back surgeries. I know it's difficult when something interferes with what you enjoy doing. There is another discussion that you might take a look at to see if it might provide some relief for your symptoms.

--- Myofascial Release Therapy (MFR) for treating compression and pain: https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/myofascial-release-therapy-mfr-for-treating-compression-and-pain/.

Another good site for learning what might help is the Foundation for Peripheral Neuropathy: https://www.foundationforpn.org/living-well/.

Have you looked into physical therapy or other treatments to see if it can help with the balance issues?

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@penn

I understand!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have no life anymore! Husband does not understand, feel alone. Family sadly is gone. We were All so close, I miss them a lot! He helps me but emotionally nothing. I get out of bed around 12, 1:00. Pain, spine from failed Laminectomy, pain, Small Fiber Neuropothy, Sojgrens. Hip surgery. Sitting very painful.
Due to the Neuropathy the nerves bowel area very difficult passing stool, Urinate constantly 24 hours a day!

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I can feel your pain and frustration.
I too have bowel issues from my neuropathy.
I have no feeling when I have a bowel movement, and I need to look to see if I did.
I have to strain very hard to have a movement, no matter what I take to help.
My husband tries to help me as much as he can, but honestly no one really gets what I’m going through.
My quality of life stinks, and there’s so much I can’t do,that it’s very depressing.

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