Post Traumatic Stress Disorder & Severe Anxiety...

Posted by Roxie43 @roxie43, May 26, 2012

Have you been diagnosed with PTSD? Are you experiencing enormous amounts of added stresses that exacerbate your condition and make you feel anxious all the time?
PTSD is a medical disorder that sadly has profound effects on the individuals life. I recently found out, by one of my provider’s that panic attacks can even occur when we are sleeping. I never knew this but it explained why I get up in the middle of the night feeling like my breathing has stopped and I need air. I sleep with a fan in my face year round for aging reasons so I’m getting plenty of air. I also participated in a sleep study to ensure that I did not have Sleep Apnea but I don’t.
Waking up like this is very scary and at times I’m afraid of falling asleep. I’m glad that I mentioned it to one of my psychiatrists because not knowing what was happening was inducing even more discomfort and anxiety.
When we are the victims of traumatic experiences and/ or are re-traumatized life can become so uncomfortable but please keep in mind that; If, we were strong enough to survive the traumatic experience/s we are all the more powerful in our continued efforts to heal!
Our faith will be tested as well as our self worth but don’t waiver my friends because we are survivors and this too will be an opportunity for us to show just how passionate we are about deserving meaningful lives.
Hugs,
Roxie ~

@roxie43

PTSD can actually be re-triggered by horrible new events. Please, all take care of yourself and if someone or something is causing you additional pain just distance yourself.
Hugs

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My PTSD is purposely triggered by my husband but this year I fought back. Hah!

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@china

Are u ok. Know its been a rough week 4 u.

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I do not know.

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@china

Are u ok. Know its been a rough week 4 u.

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It is truly such a waste of energy. She sends carrots to me…ugly gifts and money to my children whom she has stated she dislikes strongly…

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@china

Are u ok. Know its been a rough week 4 u.

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I truly do not know. Oh yes, school is overwhelming me as is life.

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@roxie43

Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future ~ P. Boese

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What I worry about is that my Sociology says memory is integral to being. I have very little memory, the rest I keep locked. Now my daily memory is vanishing.

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@roxie43

The last thing that a person needs is to be judged for not being able to be on a computer day and night. While I enjoy being online with the many friends that I have made, or thought I made, a thunderstorm had me without power. NO PHONE, NO INTERNET……
It saddens me that people can turn against one another over the inability to communicate.
Nonetheless, I am waiting to hear from my moms partner so he can tell me how the procedure went.
🙁

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People can be so nasty. I was once on a chat forum. People banded into a vicious clique. They tormented me so I left. Their gloating words were run, run Lain, you cannot escape!

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@roxie43

The last thing that a person needs is to be judged for not being able to be on a computer day and night. While I enjoy being online with the many friends that I have made, or thought I made, a thunderstorm had me without power. NO PHONE, NO INTERNET……
It saddens me that people can turn against one another over the inability to communicate.
Nonetheless, I am waiting to hear from my moms partner so he can tell me how the procedure went.
🙁

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@roxie43

The last thing that a person needs is to be judged for not being able to be on a computer day and night. While I enjoy being online with the many friends that I have made, or thought I made, a thunderstorm had me without power. NO PHONE, NO INTERNET……
It saddens me that people can turn against one another over the inability to communicate.
Nonetheless, I am waiting to hear from my moms partner so he can tell me how the procedure went.
🙁

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There are! Although, one part of me does not trust one part is naive and very young. Five, mayhap. This young one does trust.

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@roxie43

It happened last night again. In all my years, I have never experienced panic in my sleep.
Not comfortable at all….
Rox

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That is nasty! I wake up screaming and soaked. Robert told me to stop as I will frighten the children. Last night the kids slept with me. Tristan moaned…”mom”..and RUN!”.

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@roxie43

It happened last night again. In all my years, I have never experienced panic in my sleep.
Not comfortable at all….
Rox

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Strangely, slow breathing terrifies me. I feel as if I am suffocating and dying.

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I had a heart attack on jan 8th of this year. I had to be shocked 3x times that day. I thank god I was at work that day and not home with my daughter who is 10. I went back to work 6 weeks later(too soon I foind out). I work at a prison and its not the best on your stress level.
In July I was at the gym doing my treadmill wotk out when my defribulator went off 2x,turns out I had another blocked artery,had another two stents put in.
Even before that episode in July i was having issues with going to work while my family was at home,but my bosses would not work with me.
Now since July I find my self not wanting to be away from my family. I have seen a therapist since August and has helped me out alot. She tell me she thought I was suffering from PTSD due to the fact I have alomost died twice this year.
I have finally gotten past the “why me” stage and liing life the best i can. It is very hard to live with the changes and could not do it with the great wife that I have, It has been just as hard on her and I forget that sometimes. So please if you have been through this like me,please,please take your familys feelings into consideration also. They have to learn how to live with the changes also.
Scott

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@raderdude

I had a heart attack on jan 8th of this year. I had to be shocked 3x times that day. I thank god I was at work that day and not home with my daughter who is 10. I went back to work 6 weeks later(too soon I foind out). I work at a prison and its not the best on your stress level.
In July I was at the gym doing my treadmill wotk out when my defribulator went off 2x,turns out I had another blocked artery,had another two stents put in.
Even before that episode in July i was having issues with going to work while my family was at home,but my bosses would not work with me.
Now since July I find my self not wanting to be away from my family. I have seen a therapist since August and has helped me out alot. She tell me she thought I was suffering from PTSD due to the fact I have alomost died twice this year.
I have finally gotten past the “why me” stage and liing life the best i can. It is very hard to live with the changes and could not do it with the great wife that I have, It has been just as hard on her and I forget that sometimes. So please if you have been through this like me,please,please take your familys feelings into consideration also. They have to learn how to live with the changes also.
Scott

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Hello Dear,
I am so sorry you have gone through such an experience. You are not alone in the why me? dept.. I often ask myself why time after time things have to happen. It’s as if we cannot get a break in between stressors. I am happy that you have support. You are blessed and I am also happy that you survived! Hugs Rox

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@judyparker

I haven’t had PTSD but knew a neighbour who had he was a very good man but slowly started isolating himself from others and began shutting himself in… It hurt so much watching him change, he refused to take therapy , now he lives with his mother in LA. But to this day i pray for him…

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That is so nice that you pray for a neighbor. I am sure God hears your prayers and also blesses you for not stigmatizing people with mental illnesses. Hugs Rox

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@judyparker

I haven’t had PTSD but knew a neighbour who had he was a very good man but slowly started isolating himself from others and began shutting himself in… It hurt so much watching him change, he refused to take therapy , now he lives with his mother in LA. But to this day i pray for him…

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Sorry, for a month now I can barely move. Today, I took a shower. It had been five days.

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@judyparker

I haven’t had PTSD but knew a neighbour who had he was a very good man but slowly started isolating himself from others and began shutting himself in… It hurt so much watching him change, he refused to take therapy , now he lives with his mother in LA. But to this day i pray for him…

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I hope you are better and are mobile and getting great care.

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