Post Traumatic Stress Disorder & Severe Anxiety...

I had a heart attack on jan 8th of this year. I had to be shocked 3x times that day. I thank god I was at work that day and not home with my daughter who is 10. I went back to work 6 weeks later(too soon I foind out). I work at a prison and its not the best on your stress level.
In July I was at the gym doing my treadmill wotk out when my defribulator went off 2x,turns out I had another blocked artery,had another two stents put in.
Even before that episode in July i was having issues with going to work while my family was at home,but my bosses would not work with me.
Now since July I find my self not wanting to be away from my family. I have seen a therapist since August and has helped me out alot. She tell me she thought I was suffering from PTSD due to the fact I have alomost died twice this year.
I have finally gotten past the "why me" stage and liing life the best i can. It is very hard to live with the changes and could not do it with the great wife that I have, It has been just as hard on her and I forget that sometimes. So please if you have been through this like me,please,please take your familys feelings into consideration also. They have to learn how to live with the changes also.
Scott

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PTSD is such a huge and extremely hard subject! There can be similarities in triggers for many people, but each one of us is unique. God help us (seriously).

I never thought I would be diagnosed with PTSD, until I started spiraling down in burnout breakdown in the years around 2005. I became nearly non functional as a pastor, gradually becoming deeply depressed and suicidal. I finally listened to my doctor, who was telling me that I must retire before I killed myself. I was still 10 years from retirement, but I was in such a bad place that even I could see that it was time.

I was blessed with a loving childhood with 5 siblings, raised in a parsonage, always a safe place. It was safe except for being raised not to express any negative feelings. That area was neglected, though it wasn't intentional. My parents did better than their parents, who were very strict.

I hadn't connected the trauma I experienced as an adult with that style of child rearing until 2006, when I met with a psychiatrist for the first time. And I hadn't considered the possibility of PTSD. For me, it was the abusive and inconsiderate treatment I received from numerous bosses and other people that, combined with physical problems and depression, took me to the bottom of a deep dark hole. I don't know if I thought I deserved the abuse, but I tolerated it for 40 years. Big mistake!

I'm grateful for the great church that we attend, and for the assurances of God's loving care that I hear every Sunday from the pastors. Having healthy relationships, and having a healthy church are key to my being in as good a place as I am, along with a good marriage and the support of a therapist.

It's so sad when children are alienated from their parents. I can't pretend to know how awful that is, @1pjf. I will begin praying for the healing of that relationship. If you are comfortable, knowing your daughter's first name would help me pray.

I pray for each of us a year of greater peace as we move through the process of healing from all of the various trauma triggers. God does love us, for sure.

Jim

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Yes, I would love that!! I actually have 2 daughters 1 doesn’t talk to me her name is Jessica, my second daughter is disabled. Calie had seizures at 5 months with her oxygen levels as low as 12%, 9% I believe she had permanent brain damage with some of her doctors say the same thing. I really do appreciate it Thank you!
I am sorry for what you had to go through!!

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PTSD is such a huge and extremely hard subject! There can be similarities in triggers for many people, but each one of us is unique. God help us (seriously).

I never thought I would be diagnosed with PTSD, until I started spiraling down in burnout breakdown in the years around 2005. I became nearly non functional as a pastor, gradually becoming deeply depressed and suicidal. I finally listened to my doctor, who was telling me that I must retire before I killed myself. I was still 10 years from retirement, but I was in such a bad place that even I could see that it was time.

I was blessed with a loving childhood with 5 siblings, raised in a parsonage, always a safe place. It was safe except for being raised not to express any negative feelings. That area was neglected, though it wasn't intentional. My parents did better than their parents, who were very strict.

I hadn't connected the trauma I experienced as an adult with that style of child rearing until 2006, when I met with a psychiatrist for the first time. And I hadn't considered the possibility of PTSD. For me, it was the abusive and inconsiderate treatment I received from numerous bosses and other people that, combined with physical problems and depression, took me to the bottom of a deep dark hole. I don't know if I thought I deserved the abuse, but I tolerated it for 40 years. Big mistake!

I'm grateful for the great church that we attend, and for the assurances of God's loving care that I hear every Sunday from the pastors. Having healthy relationships, and having a healthy church are key to my being in as good a place as I am, along with a good marriage and the support of a therapist.

It's so sad when children are alienated from their parents. I can't pretend to know how awful that is, @1pjf. I will begin praying for the healing of that relationship. If you are comfortable, knowing your daughter's first name would help me pray.

I pray for each of us a year of greater peace as we move through the process of healing from all of the various trauma triggers. God does love us, for sure.

Jim

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