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Posted by brobles123 @brobles123, Jul 31 6:27pm

Hi , I’m new here, I’m 26 and just got diagnosed with fibromyalgia. I suffer from TTP is an autoimmune blood disease luckily right now it is in remission , it almost killed me and put me in a state of very minimal mobility due to weakness and how weak my body was. About two months after getting out the hospital I started PT, I progressed until I didn’t. The pain in my body was in a constant state of pain. My legs swell after 15 min of standing or doing any activity. I feel so stagnant , I use a walker right now. I can’t walk much, I can’t excersise much, stretching makes me want to cry while feeling somewhat good again a contradiction. I have been processing. Grieving the body I once had , the life I thought I would live. I feel sad and angry. Although I try to stay positive and grateful that I’m still alive. It still feels surreal. My wife had mentioned a wheelchair before my diagnosis, I would get embarrassed at the thought not because there’s anything wrong with it but I have always been so independent. With my illness I have lost that and I just feel like I’m grieving and I
Feel confused. I feel like a walking contradiction. And I’m hoping by writing this I can see I’m not alone. And it can help validate my pain and how severe it is. I see some people have fibro and live an active life. When I look it up it says that all fibro patients Expierence things differently some need a mobility aid some don’t. Some are more active than others some Expierence minimal or moderate pain others expierence severe. And when I look at my situation I feel mine is severe, I need a mobility aide. I can’t do anything without my partner she’s amazing btw. I get dizzy constantly my legs give out , my legs and hands feel tight and swollen . And so many other issues that arise. And I’m not saying I’m not strong and I don’t try to enjoy my life. But there’s positivity which I have gratitude for being alive but then there’s my reality the truth. And the truth is I have a chronic illness that won’t go away. And when people tell me people live normal lives I’ll be okay with time I won’t need a mobility aid or I need to do yoga or do this and that it makes me feel like my life now is something I need to fight constantly or I’m giving up and I have no hope. The version I was before my ttp and before my fibromyalgia diagnosis is a version of me I am grieving. And I feel if I’m constantly trying to get back to her it isn’t fair to the me that’s here. There’s nothing wrong with me but yet I feel there’s everything wrong with me. That I’m something I need to fix. I’m in this body 24/7 and why does accepting I have a chronic illness make me feel guilty ? It makes me feel like I’m giving up , like if I accept it I’m letting myself down is this normal ? Has anyone else feel this way? I was hoping there was a cure something that would take this away and give me back my full mobility. I was a women who loved to jump around and dance and sprint for no reason but to be silly and I can’t do those things anymore. And knowing that there isn’t and accepting my reality feels like giving up.Again a walking contradiction. Please someone tell me I’m not alone. That me needing a mobility aide isn’t something only I need and that there’s someone out there that expierences what I do. Thank you for listening to me rant. I wish you healthy flare free days🙏🏽

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Hi - 26 is young to have these issues. I spent a year mostly in bed before I was diagnosed because it hurt to walk or move in any other way. After diagnosis, I moved into a medication regimen combined with acupuncture that has really helped over time. I take Lyrica and low dose naltrexone in the mornings, and Lyrica again in the evenings. When I have a flare, I take Tonmya and soak in a tub with lavender epsom salts. Acupuncture is once a week. In addition, I live near a YMCA that has a hot tub and also water exercise classes in a warm water pool. When stretching is too painful to contemplate, the hot tub and gentle stretching in the warm water pool really help. I wish you well - I hope with the right meds you can find significant relief.

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Wow. I don’t know where to begin. I’m so sorry for all your suffering. Angry, sad , grieving my old body and who I used to be. That’s me also. HOWEVER, I’ve come a long way and you can too. When my symptoms first started, it was bad. Went from Salsa dancing (hard, physically demanding long hours average 3 times per week in my early 50’s to barely being able to walk, had to crawl on all fours up stairs (lived in a townhouse with stairs to my bedroom), the action of opening a door was not possible from the pain, couldn’t step off a curb, shower hit me like needles, nerve pain along my legs that was excruciating. I refused any mobile aid. Doctors were thinking MS. You made me realize how much better I am! Tried so many things. Acupuncture, chiropractors, supplements, supplements, supplements vitamins, pain creams, heating pad, ibuprofen, hard meditations, yoga, much faith in God, and much more. When first diagnosed I was on Amitriptyline and it worked right away although much sedating it was a godsend. It caused me a heart problem (QT longation), found accidentally in EKG done for preop for minor surgery. It went away when i stopped it. Then took Cymbalta. Also took Gabapentin for many many years. They helped but my life was changed forever. My plan was to dance tango in my 90’s, that’s how good I felt before this hit me. Over one year ago I got off Cymbalta and Gabapentin due to side effects and have been doing much better with the help of LDN (low dose naltrexone, much info on here about it). You have to find a doctor that prescribes it and you have to get it from compounding pharmacy. I’m on 6 mg and better than ever pain wise, not perfect, not cured but some of my symptoms were side affects from Cymbalta and Gabapentin and not having the medication side affects has made me better too. So I feel I shouldn’t have taken those for so long. Fatigue, insomnia, IBS, brain fog other things still there. LDN, heating pad, biofreeze and ibuprofen only when needed, maybe 2-3 times per month, that’s it. The ibuprofen really helps! I would take it everyday it works so well however of course that’s not recommended and I’m doing well enough that I don’t need it everyday anyway. But my point being ibuprofen wouldn’t have helped at the beginning and now does. Although most likely what’s helping most is the LDN. So things can get better. Everyone is different in this illness. I’m 67 now and much better but always going to miss who I used to be. There’s so much more I can say but this is already long enough. This group has much much advise on methods that help make you better. If you go back on previous posts you will find suggestions on anything that is bothering you.
You can get better too. I pray for your better health. Peace and love.

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I will be brief. DON'T give up. I fought 25 years with similar symptoms and was diagnosed with Fibromylagia in my 40s. Around the same time AFTER 25 years of deteriorating the blood bank (not the doctors!) discovered I had Hep C! The recovery was grueling. But I fought and was cured. About 10 years later it was the massive arthritis. Then the joint replacements began and I have major surgeries ever few years. (some could have killed me!). Yes, I am tired at 69 of a life filled with medical shit. But like you said YOU ARE BLESSED with a wonderful supportive partner. I am a widow alone with no close friends. I am an artist and have always found BLESSINGS in my total involvement in my art forms when I am capable. I have witnessed others who were impacted by negative health who overcame impossible odds to do their art form too. Grieve, yes, but don't think YOU KNOW what you are grieving about until YOU KNOW. You will find silver linings all around. Your grief may lead you to one, in fact! Love your partner, your community and life. Love is the answer. Give your life as much love as you can muster. On the bad days, do what you did - reach out for community. Did I say I was going to be brief?! sending you a hug. P.S. - came back to say: don't let a diagnosis define you!!! That alone is misery. Have a life inspite of a medical diagnosis. We are spirit beings too. Remember to focus on your spiritual needs when the physical fails you.

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Hi - 26 is young to have these issues. I spent a year mostly in bed before I was diagnosed because it hurt to walk or move in any other way. After diagnosis, I moved into a medication regimen combined with acupuncture that has really helped over time. I take Lyrica and low dose naltrexone in the mornings, and Lyrica again in the evenings. When I have a flare, I take Tonmya and soak in a tub with lavender epsom salts. Acupuncture is once a week. In addition, I live near a YMCA that has a hot tub and also water exercise classes in a warm water pool. When stretching is too painful to contemplate, the hot tub and gentle stretching in the warm water pool really help. I wish you well - I hope with the right meds you can find significant relief.

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@lwmarcrum thank you for taking the time to respond to me and open up about your experiences! 26 is young I was always very healthy I only got sick once a year. Things have changed, my Dr prescribed me muscle relaxers when I have flares this is a process I appreciate you reaching out I hope you have a wonderful day

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Wow. I don’t know where to begin. I’m so sorry for all your suffering. Angry, sad , grieving my old body and who I used to be. That’s me also. HOWEVER, I’ve come a long way and you can too. When my symptoms first started, it was bad. Went from Salsa dancing (hard, physically demanding long hours average 3 times per week in my early 50’s to barely being able to walk, had to crawl on all fours up stairs (lived in a townhouse with stairs to my bedroom), the action of opening a door was not possible from the pain, couldn’t step off a curb, shower hit me like needles, nerve pain along my legs that was excruciating. I refused any mobile aid. Doctors were thinking MS. You made me realize how much better I am! Tried so many things. Acupuncture, chiropractors, supplements, supplements, supplements vitamins, pain creams, heating pad, ibuprofen, hard meditations, yoga, much faith in God, and much more. When first diagnosed I was on Amitriptyline and it worked right away although much sedating it was a godsend. It caused me a heart problem (QT longation), found accidentally in EKG done for preop for minor surgery. It went away when i stopped it. Then took Cymbalta. Also took Gabapentin for many many years. They helped but my life was changed forever. My plan was to dance tango in my 90’s, that’s how good I felt before this hit me. Over one year ago I got off Cymbalta and Gabapentin due to side effects and have been doing much better with the help of LDN (low dose naltrexone, much info on here about it). You have to find a doctor that prescribes it and you have to get it from compounding pharmacy. I’m on 6 mg and better than ever pain wise, not perfect, not cured but some of my symptoms were side affects from Cymbalta and Gabapentin and not having the medication side affects has made me better too. So I feel I shouldn’t have taken those for so long. Fatigue, insomnia, IBS, brain fog other things still there. LDN, heating pad, biofreeze and ibuprofen only when needed, maybe 2-3 times per month, that’s it. The ibuprofen really helps! I would take it everyday it works so well however of course that’s not recommended and I’m doing well enough that I don’t need it everyday anyway. But my point being ibuprofen wouldn’t have helped at the beginning and now does. Although most likely what’s helping most is the LDN. So things can get better. Everyone is different in this illness. I’m 67 now and much better but always going to miss who I used to be. There’s so much more I can say but this is already long enough. This group has much much advise on methods that help make you better. If you go back on previous posts you will find suggestions on anything that is bothering you.
You can get better too. I pray for your better health. Peace and love.

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@jeannesf1 67 what a blessing that is! Thank you for reaching out and sharing your experiences with me so I don’t feel alone. My mom is a salsa dancer , I also loved to dance from salsa to perreo as my puertorican people say. Thank you for showing me these feelings are valid and I’m not being dramatic. My grief has been up and down some days I don’t think about it others it’s the first thing on my mind when I wake up. Your comment is appreciated I hope you have a wonderful day

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I will be brief. DON'T give up. I fought 25 years with similar symptoms and was diagnosed with Fibromylagia in my 40s. Around the same time AFTER 25 years of deteriorating the blood bank (not the doctors!) discovered I had Hep C! The recovery was grueling. But I fought and was cured. About 10 years later it was the massive arthritis. Then the joint replacements began and I have major surgeries ever few years. (some could have killed me!). Yes, I am tired at 69 of a life filled with medical shit. But like you said YOU ARE BLESSED with a wonderful supportive partner. I am a widow alone with no close friends. I am an artist and have always found BLESSINGS in my total involvement in my art forms when I am capable. I have witnessed others who were impacted by negative health who overcame impossible odds to do their art form too. Grieve, yes, but don't think YOU KNOW what you are grieving about until YOU KNOW. You will find silver linings all around. Your grief may lead you to one, in fact! Love your partner, your community and life. Love is the answer. Give your life as much love as you can muster. On the bad days, do what you did - reach out for community. Did I say I was going to be brief?! sending you a hug. P.S. - came back to say: don't let a diagnosis define you!!! That alone is misery. Have a life inspite of a medical diagnosis. We are spirit beings too. Remember to focus on your spiritual needs when the physical fails you.

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@loriesco this comment resonated with me a lot. I am a very spiritual individual and I was meant to see this from you. Thank you for taking the time to answer me and share parts of your life with me. I feel honored. Thank you for telling me to add more love to my life because that’s how I try to wake up everyday grateful and full of love. This message touched me. It was very kind and well written. I really needed to hear this especially this week getting diagnosed. I have been dealing with issues since I have gotten out the hospital in Feb, and it’s been hard and it’s been dark at times but yes. Loving my life and the people in it has truly been a life saver. You are a great soul. May the universe continue to bless you and may you always remain so kind.

Ps: I’m happy you didn’t keep it short , you brought light to my life today with your comment it made me cry happy tears. Stay blessed please and stay safe may you continue to life a beautiful life. And hey I may just be a 26 year old you met on Mayo Clinic but you’re not alone !

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Wow. I don’t know where to begin. I’m so sorry for all your suffering. Angry, sad , grieving my old body and who I used to be. That’s me also. HOWEVER, I’ve come a long way and you can too. When my symptoms first started, it was bad. Went from Salsa dancing (hard, physically demanding long hours average 3 times per week in my early 50’s to barely being able to walk, had to crawl on all fours up stairs (lived in a townhouse with stairs to my bedroom), the action of opening a door was not possible from the pain, couldn’t step off a curb, shower hit me like needles, nerve pain along my legs that was excruciating. I refused any mobile aid. Doctors were thinking MS. You made me realize how much better I am! Tried so many things. Acupuncture, chiropractors, supplements, supplements, supplements vitamins, pain creams, heating pad, ibuprofen, hard meditations, yoga, much faith in God, and much more. When first diagnosed I was on Amitriptyline and it worked right away although much sedating it was a godsend. It caused me a heart problem (QT longation), found accidentally in EKG done for preop for minor surgery. It went away when i stopped it. Then took Cymbalta. Also took Gabapentin for many many years. They helped but my life was changed forever. My plan was to dance tango in my 90’s, that’s how good I felt before this hit me. Over one year ago I got off Cymbalta and Gabapentin due to side effects and have been doing much better with the help of LDN (low dose naltrexone, much info on here about it). You have to find a doctor that prescribes it and you have to get it from compounding pharmacy. I’m on 6 mg and better than ever pain wise, not perfect, not cured but some of my symptoms were side affects from Cymbalta and Gabapentin and not having the medication side affects has made me better too. So I feel I shouldn’t have taken those for so long. Fatigue, insomnia, IBS, brain fog other things still there. LDN, heating pad, biofreeze and ibuprofen only when needed, maybe 2-3 times per month, that’s it. The ibuprofen really helps! I would take it everyday it works so well however of course that’s not recommended and I’m doing well enough that I don’t need it everyday anyway. But my point being ibuprofen wouldn’t have helped at the beginning and now does. Although most likely what’s helping most is the LDN. So things can get better. Everyone is different in this illness. I’m 67 now and much better but always going to miss who I used to be. There’s so much more I can say but this is already long enough. This group has much much advise on methods that help make you better. If you go back on previous posts you will find suggestions on anything that is bothering you.
You can get better too. I pray for your better health. Peace and love.

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@jeannesf1

Do you see a Gastro for your IBS? If you have IBS-D, ask your Gastro about Colestipol. After 9 years of accidents and no real relief because 2 different Gastros told me there is no medication for IBS-D, I found one who knows what he's doing. My Doctor sent me to a new Gastro in February. He listens, he takes notes, he asks questions, he recorded our first visit with an app in his phone. He said to me "There is absolutely medicine to handle IBS-D and I don't understand why you were told no for so long." He put me on Colestipol, and I haven't had attack since. I saw him 2 weeks ago, and I told him he was a lifesaver. It's unreal how well it works. I did say it doesn't stop irritation from Motrin or an antibiotic. So he told me just increase the dose from 2 pills to 3 or for depending upon how upset your stomach is.

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@loriesco this comment resonated with me a lot. I am a very spiritual individual and I was meant to see this from you. Thank you for taking the time to answer me and share parts of your life with me. I feel honored. Thank you for telling me to add more love to my life because that’s how I try to wake up everyday grateful and full of love. This message touched me. It was very kind and well written. I really needed to hear this especially this week getting diagnosed. I have been dealing with issues since I have gotten out the hospital in Feb, and it’s been hard and it’s been dark at times but yes. Loving my life and the people in it has truly been a life saver. You are a great soul. May the universe continue to bless you and may you always remain so kind.

Ps: I’m happy you didn’t keep it short , you brought light to my life today with your comment it made me cry happy tears. Stay blessed please and stay safe may you continue to life a beautiful life. And hey I may just be a 26 year old you met on Mayo Clinic but you’re not alone !

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@brobles123
Thanks! Not easy to be positive while suffering but the alternative is so much worse.

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