mentally unstable for a while, stopped taking my meds
Hi everyone! I was hoping you guys could help me because I'm not sure what to do. Two years ago my depression and anxiety got very bad, I was in and out of the hospital for a while, but after taking a year off of school and somewhat recovering, I decided I wanted to see what it would be like to go off of my antidepressants. Overall I am feeling much better throughout the day and night, but in the mornings I am always waking up in a panic. It is sometimes so bad that I can't leave the house, having to cancel prior commitments, just to sit inside and cry and freakout and I am never even sure why I'm freaking out and what its about. I have horrible nightmares every single night, very vivid and scary, sometimes about flashbacks to bad times, and sometimes things that are so insane that would probably never happen. It is like about 4 hours after I wake up that I usually feel great and it lasts until I got to bed. Antidepressants have made me feel foggy, not myself/real, gain weight… I don't want to go back on them but i want this morning panic and nightmares to stop!!