I am a pancreatic cancer survivor. Miracle, right? Yes, and I thank God everyday for the chance to share joy and love with everyone I meet. However, I was never given the chance to balance the conditions of life after cancer when deciding to go through with the treatment. Diabetes, chronic pain in surgical site, follow up surgeries, Pills, Pills Pills, Limitations, infections, etc…. quality of life can be difficult to find with all this going on. Mostly, I deal with it through distraction, grand babies, and volunteer work. But I feel alone in this conflict.
My current health changes are increase in arthritis symptoms, which may or may not have to do with the loss of my spleen or just body stress. Additionally, I had to have an abdominal mesh inserted due to an infection, the pain is not going away. I started insulin yesterday, I am a baker by trade. Really? And my digestion, I don’t even want to go there. Oh, constant infections and illness.
Everyone says, “Better then the alternative, right?” (Meaning death) Why go there? Then they (professional and friends alike) do not investigate my health concerns. I feel that the “you survived” argument is not related to my current health concerns, nor is my gratitude diminished by my physical complaints.
My concerns are?
* How long is my pancreatic head going to last? (I have constant swelling and radical sugar fluctuations)
* How does one cope with diabetes? This is a lifetime commitment.
* How long will this pain in my stomach last, and how can I tell what pain is dangerous and what is post surgical?
* What are the risks of complications as a diabetic, hereditary immune disorders, and loss of spleen?
* I have Hashimoto’s disease, how will that effect these other new conditions.
I feel these are minor concerns. Seeing that I survived pancreatic cancer.
Is anyone else experiencing, generally, post cancer anxieties and health conditions?