Fortunately, I am a healthy 70 yr old, with supposedly a strong heart. some ills for thyroid, some cholesterol, anxiety/mild depression now and some usual
small stuff. See my physician twice a year, lungs x-rayed once a year. I can’t tell you what pattern of smoking I had since college. Never a pack a day that I remember, mouched(sp?) in college and after from friends. so many smoked in the ’60s and ’70s. Fast forward. I stopped for months of various reasons(such that it is no good for anyone #1), but drifted back in and truthfully not sure of the timing. I went through tough last five years of a child having a nervous breakdown, and much better now but just not the same. Yes during that period I smoked, but never a pack!! In a casino, hard not to light up and with a friend who smokes. NOW….I have a safe zone in my garage(I call it my chapel-spent a lot of time in here last 5 years in deep thinking, prayer or my child and frankly for all ups and downs we all go through. No one smokes in my house(all grown up now and know I sneak out there. Honestly, I feel I look forward to getting out there psychologically more than I feel a nicotine drive. Chew some Nicotine during the day. Now I am talking about 3-5 cig a day tops. Thought a month ago, that’s it!! 5 days. seriously seemed easy. Drifted in there the sixth day, had one. Now I’m back to 3 maybe a day.
Say to myself, what’s the harm? “Social smoker,” I say. Everyone is different…Should I psychologically go 3 to 2 to 1 over next month(some people suggest!)…cold turkey again???…Something about that safe place, believe it or not, a garage(my chapel)…Long story but true. Not many people I know smoke openly, but they do sneak cigs(not many, maybe 1)…Sorry for the lengthy story…. God Bless and Healthy living! JB
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