Feeling Alone w/ Anxiety, Depression + Unexplained Chest Pain
Hi, my name is Kaitlyn, I’m 27 years old and lately it’s been feeling like I’ve been struggling, I have a therapist I talk to and I have some support from my family but sometimes my symptoms are too much. I’ve been having a lot of chest pain, it goes to my back and in my arm and I’ve been to the ER several times this month alone feeling like I’m going to have a heart attack or some kind of heart thing happen. Every single test they’ve done, they find nothing at all and of course that’s reassuring but then I got home and the pain came back and came on worse, I’ve tried talking to my aunt about it but she gets angry with me when I bring up my chest pain and my palpitations because I’ve been to the hospital so much for it and they’ve never found anything.
I had my first cardiac cath done when I was eighteen and it’s been an on going problem since then. I have had CT’s, scopes done on my esophagus, a few echos, a ton of EKG’s, event monitors, holter monitors, lots of blood work ups and a lot of x-rays as well. Every time I go to the ER they always come back normal, nothing is ever wrong which don’t get me wrong I’m thankful for but then again it’s frustrating not to know why I’m in constant pain every single day and why sometimes it gets worse and why it changes. Cardiologists always tell me I’m too young, I have risk facts like obesity, HBP, diabetes but they continue to tell me they think I’m too young. I’ve been on several pain medications that don’t help with this pain and I’m on several medications now to help with the HBP, cholesterol and my anxiety, have been on so many different ones since I was 13. I don’t know if this pain is my anxiety manifesting itself like people have told me but I’m scared and I feel like I have nobody right now. I have been diagnosed with chronic anxiety, severe depression, panic disorder and a few other things.
Sorry if this post was triggering for some, I just feel like I could use people who can relate.