Fear of transplant denial because of psychiatric illness
I’ve struggled with illness anxiety disorder, depression, ocd, for decades. My ptsd started after I was diagnosed with NASH F3. I have horrific night terrors without the meds. I’ve had to be hospitalized a couple of times. I have panic disorder and take high doses of clonazepam and ambien. Im trying hard to find other ways cope with the anxiety. I’m not suicidal but long ago in the midst of panics I’d say I wish I was never born. I work extensively with a therapist weekly. Still trying various meds for the ocd and depression etc. my fear since my diagnosis has been rooted in denial of transplant. Idk how to convince a transplant team that if I’m ever blessed with a new liver I will treat like a baby and do whatever it takes to survive and fight.
I need advice, help, and mostly HOPE!!!! Please help!!