Depression and Anxiety at an older age

@merpreb Thanks again for the reminder. There have been times I have been confused as well. We will continue to work on it

@merpreb Thank you!!

This is not a reply to anyone. I have so much angst these days about nearly everything. I put on my social face to keep others happy and it has become exhausting to the point of rarely feeling a part of anything. I know chronic pain which many have plays a role. Nothing can be done for most of the issues I experience. When I see chronic pain in my records along with depression I know there likely will be no help or hope.
If there are those that want to accuse me or others for wallowing in self pity then these people are heartless.
Many of us here work hard for quality of life and it is admirable. Those that are critical are likely far more miserable than they can admit.

@parus The first thing I thought was, "Oh honey!", then that I just wanted to give you a big hug. You are not alone. Everyone experiences life differently and there are always going to be those that have no point of reference and don't understand. Do you have someone to talk to when it gets bad? Someone who will listen and not judge, just support you? I'm wishing you peace for today. That you can relax and know there are people who understand and care like the people here. Lyn

@pearlbaby7- You hit the nail on the head with this one! Good morning and thank you! My belief is that, whether we want to admit it or not we all judge, some more intensely than others. Got a chuckle out of your joke! It's a winner and so are you!

True about being critical. If I have offended someone I am sorry as I can be critical. I will work on this undesirable part.

Be yourself. Let GOD be your leader. Some times we let our minds run away with bad throughs that all most never happens. We can Pray for each other.

Why is your job to keep others HAPPY? Your job is to be happy with God.

@parus- I know that you have been struggling with this for a while. You also have had physical problems that can kick start tension, anxiety, etc.. And more tests are coming up too. In early February when I had my CT scan my blood pressure and angst was sky high. My notion is, if it's not an emergency, reading our records can make anyone depressed and angsty (my word), as well as constant pain. By reading our records it can be depressing as hell. I am so glad that you care to help yourself and others. As you know, you have taught me a lot.
Hang in there honey. Look at how far you have come. I bet "back then" you wouldn't have believed that you could be like you are today, so things are not hopeless or helpless. Please be kind to yourself. You have these ailments, you know you do. Help might just be around the corner after your test.

I do believe I need to take a break. If I could delete my original comment about my angst I sure would as feeling preached at and lesser than because of my lack of faith I am not needing once again.
Thank you to members for understanding. Until I can regroup I need to find comfort another way.