APS and Celiac artery dissection

I just don't know if I can take this. The last decade or so has been filled with family passing away, mental health diagnosis, a APS diagnosis and this past week, a diagnosis of Celiac dissection. I faithfully take my mental health meds as well as my warfarin for APS. I'm frustrated with the number of dr visits everything takes a month. But this Celiac thing has me ready to give up. I have an ultrasound next week to see where we go from here. Xrays from ER visits show it's about 1.4 cm. I watch a YouTube video and the Dr. made such a large incision. It horrified me. I am homeless living in a temporary airbnb. I may have to move Jan. 1st. and can't deal with thinking about a surgery, a stomach scar that takes a few months to heal or, if no surgery that the artery will burst on its own. It carries a very high mortality rate. The Don't Do's have me afraid to move the wrong way. I have lower back issues so I'm always twisting to get comfortable. I've lost all of my goals to make myself happy.