What helps you manage anger when living epilepsy?

Posted by belinda5000 @belinda5000, Mar 21 8:27pm

I have a lot of anger in my life because of my epilepsy.
I can thank the doc who delivered me for my seizures, I was a forceps baby and I've always wondered why he didn't use his hands to deliver me, My mother was in labor 72 hrs with me and obviously
my mother was to far along for her to have a c section.
I've had just a few jobs in my life and I've never driven a car.
I do remember someone telling me once her husband would never drive her places if she was unable and that is how u find out if some one truly loves you. He has seen me to h@ll and back. He also has epilepsy but his brain surgery stopped his seizures. Had surgery in 1982 got the Vns in 1999 and neither was able stop my seizures.
Not being able to drive.

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Hi Chris I have started Xcopri for the 2nd time and I had to ,let her know that I wasn't able to handle being on Tegretol,Topamax and Xcopri all at once. I told her I was going to start taking myself off the Tegretol 100MG a week and I was an old pro and she could yell at at me all she wanted.
She got back in touch with me and actually said to me 100MG was fine in coming off Tegretol.
My old neurologist had taught me a lot like how to come down slowly .
I've been on Tegretol since 1974
It's the Topamax I'm worried about on how to come off of.
I'm on 25Mg of Xcopri once a week right now.
Belinda

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@belinda5000
Hi Belinda,
I understand your feelings well. When I was first diagnosed and put on my first AED. it gave me severe insomnia. At that time, I was still working and had an active professional life, and my doctor simply told me to push through it and continue with my life. But at a certain point, I said NO — I told him I could no longer endure that and asked him to change my medication. He pushed back, which led me to seek a second and then a third opinion, and I changed doctors.
You've been managing your epilepsy this since 1974 — that's over 50 years of learning your own patterns, and no one knows your body better than you do. I think that's something worth recognizing: we are, in many ways, the best advocates for our own epilepsy journey. Doctors bring expertise, but we bring the lived experience of what each medication actually does to us.
Are you satisfied with your current doctor? And for coming off Topamax, has your doctor given you a specific tapering schedule?
Chris

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Thank you for your post and filling in gaps. Have reached out to counselor
and she's probably going to shake a little next session. Been keeping
notes better. Will touch base later on with the groups 👌 and see where I
belong now. Have a wonderful and blessed weekend ✨️ 🙏

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@randallshields56
Hi Randy,
I'm happy to know that you've reached out to a counselor.
Take all the time you need to figure out where you belong; there's no rush!
Chris

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Yt......went to ER last just over a week ago, diagnosed with cellulitis lower left leg.
Made Dr appointment, got uva seen and same outcome. First week they gave me antibiotic, then another following last one. If still same swelling in three days get checked out. Everything has a cause. Thank you, have a great day tomorrow.

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Yt......went to ER last just over a week ago, diagnosed with cellulitis lower left leg.
Made Dr appointment, got uva seen and same outcome. First week they gave me antibiotic, then another following last one. If still same swelling in three days get checked out. Everything has a cause. Thank you, have a great day tomorrow.

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@randallshields56
Hi Randy,
Thanks for sharing this update — I'm sorry to hear about the cellulitis. That sounds uncomfortable on top of everything else you're managing. It's good that you've stayed on top of it with the ER visit and follow-up appointment, and that you have a clear plan in place if the swelling doesn't improve.
Sending you wishes for a smooth and speedy recovery. 🙌
Chris

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Yt......went to ER last just over a week ago, diagnosed with cellulitis lower left leg.
Made Dr appointment, got uva seen and same outcome. First week they gave me antibiotic, then another following last one. If still same swelling in three days get checked out. Everything has a cause. Thank you, have a great day tomorrow.

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Thank you 😊

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Yt......went to ER last just over a week ago, diagnosed with cellulitis lower left leg.
Made Dr appointment, got uva seen and same outcome. First week they gave me antibiotic, then another following last one. If still same swelling in three days get checked out. Everything has a cause. Thank you, have a great day tomorrow.

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Tha thank you 😊

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@randallshields56
Hi Randy,
Thanks for sharing this update — I'm sorry to hear about the cellulitis. That sounds uncomfortable on top of everything else you're managing. It's good that you've stayed on top of it with the ER visit and follow-up appointment, and that you have a clear plan in place if the swelling doesn't improve.
Sending you wishes for a smooth and speedy recovery. 🙌
Chris

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Thank you for your response and prayers 🙏

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Yt......went to ER last just over a week ago, diagnosed with cellulitis lower left leg.
Made Dr appointment, got uva seen and same outcome. First week they gave me antibiotic, then another following last one. If still same swelling in three days get checked out. Everything has a cause. Thank you, have a great day tomorrow.

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Thank you for the like

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Sometimes, take a step back. Instead of feeling angry over epilepsy/seizure, I think it feels better to see it as a challenge. To push the boundary for ourselves. Unfortunately, my epilepsy is a refractory one and I have almost daily seizure I can hardly take a day off if you know what I mean.

Last March, I just took a 4 hr flight after not having stepped into an aircraft cabin for almost a decade. How many decades do I have not to do things I love and I can control doing? I had disappoints towards medication, people and pretending to be ok when I was not because no one without epilepsy can possibly understand my emotion. Popping those medication like candy everyday? Giving up drinking which I love? Soon I’ll have to switch to generic after my insurance coverage stops coverage. Who knows whether they’ll work?

That 4 hour flight just felt so good.

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From my experience, don't ask and don't be demanding, tell your neurologist you NEED their assistance. He/she may write a letter to the insurance company educating them about SUDEP. The thought of them being held financially liable for one losing their life due to denying their Brand Name med, may make a difference. With each 3 month supply request, the insurance company said I had to take generics. My neuro jumped in, wrote a letter and the insurance company complied. I wish you success. You'll never know unless you try.

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@louissc
From my experience, don't ask and don't be demanding, tell your neurologist you NEED their assistance. He/she may write a letter to the insurance company educating them about SUDEP. The thought of them being held financially liable for one losing their life due to denying their Brand Name med, may make a difference. With each 3 month supply request, the insurance company said I had to take generics. My neuro jumped in, wrote a letter and the insurance company complied. I wish you success. You'll never know unless you try.

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@royanthony

Hi! That thought never crossed my mind to be honest, and I’m not sure I’m covered for lifelong medication either. I’m covered for 365 days of “recovering period” upon every hospitalization episode. I’ll have to check with my agent about that. Thanks. However, as my insurance firm is an international one (Prudential), I don’t think mine is the first case they dealt with.

Cheers,
Louis

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