Anyone deal with anger related to their epilepsy?

I thought this was one place I wouldn't be judged but I see I'm wrong, Most of you developed epilepsy when you were older It has been all my life, and I've never gone 6 months seizure free and I've always had to depend on someone and I have every right to be angry. I've never been able to drive I've held 2 jobs not counting babysitting as a teen. I'vve had brain surgery in 1982, Vns, and considering RNS in 1999 taken 25 difeferent medications and I've been to I don't know how many epilepsy clinics in how many states and Canada.

I'm 64 yrs old. I was two when diagnosed but it's been longer but I have no right be angry BULL

Belinda

@randallshields56 besides being angry doesn’t get you anywhere in life. It could even trigger more seziures

@louissc
thank you for the post and i am back and things have gotten a little better. thinking a little clearer now and saw my post here and realized that i was just angry with myself and don't let it show because of what people might think of me. Hiding my feelings has become second nature now so that people don't panic when i make changes. its a life. have a blessed day and thank you again.

Hi, I hope some, if not all, things had become or are becoming easier for you to deal with. Some of the emotions one feel can be side effects of medication. Some friends said I had become more irritable and full of angst during that period of time. It’s difficult to keep telling myself “that’s not the real me” and to differentiate what should make me angry allowing me to show my anger because that’s actually the right thing to do (say, racism) and merely side effects. I doubt myself occasionally sometimes to be honest.

You take care!

Cheers,
Louis

Thank you for the always welcoming support. Going to have to say it has
been a good run and the 8th will be the turn point as to checking in with
updates and regrouping and carry on or something else gets decided.
Either way, youand the team have been awesome. Have a great 4th of July
weekend.

@randallshields56 - just wanted to propose an option if you'd like a temporary break to attend to other matters: temporarily unsubscribe.

If you chose to do this, your settings would be kept intact for when you return and turn notifications back on. See info here: How to customize your notifications and settings | Mayo Clinic Connect https://connect.mayoclinic.org/blog/about-connect/newsfeed-post/how-to-customize-your-notifications-and-settings/

Below is the part of this page that may be especially appropriate for what you mentioned about needing to be off Connect for a few days and maybe longer:

- Disable/Enable All Email Notifications (find in bold text about 40% down this page)

If you felt this was in your temporary best interest, you can turn off all emails. Your settings will be saved when you decide to turn them back on.

@randallshields56
Good Morning Randy!
I read through everything, and I just want to say — that's an enormous amount to be carrying all at once. The loss of the veteran you cared for, your daughter's situation, losing a family friend, and now medication changes affecting your body on top of it all... any one of these would be hard alone. Together, it's a lot!
I want to gently say: this might be a moment where you need a bit more support, even with all the strength you've shown getting this far. Having someone dedicated just to you — a therapist or psychologist — can make a real difference. You deserve that kind of support too, Randy. Putting your own oxygen mask on first isn't selfish, it's necessary. I've been through that myself, as I've already shared with you.
About leaving the group — I hear you, and I respect wherever you land. You don't owe anyone an explanation. But I'll say this honestly: you've been part of this community for a while, and people here care about how you're doing, not just when things are going well. The door stays open, whether that's a few days or longer.
Take care of yourself, Randy!
Chris

Thank you Chris for your responses and positive attitude and suggestions.

@santosha
Going to be off here for a few days, maybe longer. Even though I've kind of hit a spot i am comfortable with it is time to possibly leave the group. It's been a good run up till of late. And don't want to tie up many who have helped, from volunteer to coach and mentors and so many more. Will see where the next few days wants to put me. Thank you for all that you have done to help me get this far. Sincerely just me.

Thank you for your responses 🙏