Anxiety in sleep

Thank you for letting me know how you react. I just get awake and panicky thinking of the future and how I will take care of myself. I live in a full range CCRC so the services are here when I need them but I just don't want to have to need them.

When my husband was alive and I would get testy he would say "your stinger is out" to remind me to pull back on the irritability. Now I have to self-regulate my moods. I can't imagine being on your level of prednisone and the toll it takes. You are really challenged for sure and I wish you well. I have r/a and post polio syndrome and other issues. Basically I look ok from the outside but like to say about myself, "I have termite damage, it's all on the inside". Mary Ellen

Termite damage is a good way to describe me too! Thanks for that visual.

Last night I woke up yelling something about a box of butter dishes! I remember saying, I don’t want any butter dishes!!
What? I have no clue where that came from! Crazy…
Termite damage inspection time… 😵‍💫

Yesterday I had a knee ablation. Went well but I had to double my hydrocortisone to 40 mg for the day due to my adrenal insufficiency. My procedure was under light sedation which I in no way felt but the pain level with the needles and burning was minimal. However by the time the day ended I was ravenous with hunger and so hyper I was up an hour later than usual and eating ice cream at 9 PM. I am sure it was the result of the corticosteroid increase plus they injected prednisone into the knee area to assure pain relief over the next few days. If I had to be on any dose higher than my present, I would be certifiable. I never gained weight nor got a moon face from my dosage and in fact had trouble gaining and keeping on weight. But I finally got to sleep and no anxiety at least. I hope the butter dishes connection makes itself known to you. Hard to fathom where our brains search out these ideas from.

M.E.

Butter dishes are still a mystery…😂
Over eating isn’t. I’m eating like there is no tomorrow. I try not to but… I’m down to 30 mg of prednisone and the hunger is getting worse.
Ironically, I lost 30 pounds over the last year and now this. Well, when I finally get off this stuff I know what to do to lose weight.
I hope you have a great day and your knee is not too painful. Knees are rather important 🏃🏽‍♀️
I’ve had both mine replaced.

Thanks for the heads up. I was hoping for a TKR but had polio as an infant and my quads on that side are too weak to support a replacement. I would be at great risk for being worse. I have a fierce dread of being wheelchair bound so prefer hobbling to any lesser alternative. I always thought corticosteroids were an automatic weight gain but I never had that. Good your limit is now 30. That is a huge improvement and I know it took some effort to get there. It is a tough journey. Take care S.E. M.E.

You are a fighter! I’m sorry you are going through this. However, you are a very strong person and you will be fine.
Polio virus has been detected recently in the water in New York City!
My great-grandfather had polio. He died the year before I was born so I didn’t have the opportunity to meet him.

By the way, those butter dishes are gone…😁

Be blessed!