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Back in 2018, I diagnosed with what doctors thought was CDiff and they put me on vancomycin and Reglan. I had a very bad reaction to the Reglan and suddenly started having anxiety. It came out of nowhere. I had been on Effexor for 16 years when that happened and it had been working fine for 16 years and never had any anxiety or depression. When the anxiety started the doctors didn’t know what was causing it so they took me off of the Effexor cold turkey. I basically went into psychosis. I was in and out of hospitals for months and months and months with them trying to help me and they finally put me on Klonopin. That was in 2019. By early 2021 I had already reached tolerance and decided I would start tapering off of the benzo. I did that for nine months and it kept getting worse and worse and someone suggested that I try brain restoration NAD. I did that for 10 days and they switched me over to Valium to complete my taper. It didn’t help. I honestly don’t think I can do this for another nine months to a year every day. I wake up wanting to just die from the symptoms. I don’t have anxiety in my brain, I just have all these physical symptoms. Today I finally had a complete meltdown and told my family that I couldn’t do this anymore. I used to be a very successful business woman in Atlanta and traveled the world and did mission trips to Third World countries and now I’m curled up on the sofa wishing I could just fall asleep and never wake up. I know if I go into a rehab program they are just going to do a fast taper and then I will be left dealing with withdrawal symptoms. Someone please give me a recommendation. I can’t live like this anymore.
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I am so sorry. I have no suggestions but one. Find a new & much better physician/psychiatrist. No one should suffer like you are.
I would say it was the Effexor rather than the benzo. You were on Effexor a very long time. Stopping Effexor abruptly can cause withdrawal symptoms for a very long time. There is a whole group here on Connect that deals with Effexor and the damage it does. I suggest you find this group and start reading. Can a moderator direct this poor woman to the Effexor site?
Is there away to delete my whole post? I know what I have to do. I just don’t want this out there on the internet. Please. Thank you for your help.
Feeling for you deeply. Getting off Paxil was not easy and ive been on Lexapro for years as well as low dose klonopin. I took a gene sight test a few years ago that indicated other meds such as Wellbutrin would be more suitable but I couldn’t get thru the transition so just take low dose 10 mg of Lexapro. I’m low level functioning but understand how you feel. This pandemic has just exacerbated our loneliness anxiety and depression. My sleep routine is very strange and disrupted.
I just retire to bed very early and read then awake at 3 am with disturbing dreams.
I force myself up to take care of cats and go to gym. Hope you can find a way through and find some enjoyable activity.
Don’t give up.
I had a negative experience with Trintillex, but got some help getting off it and transitioned to Prozac, and life is fine. Much to be said for some of the older medications. Pleased you are on a good path forward.
May I ask how you're doing now?
Absolute Certainty can be an enemy of recovery. When I am depressed I have a closed destructive, mind.
I would never take the advice of a general practitioner unless it was a referral to a psychiatrist. I believe talk therapy is essential for taking tiny steps to change negative thoughts that can also be addictive. I am not my own doctor. That is a fact. I wish you a day better than yesterday.
This is a very late reply to your 2021 post Cat. Hopefully you've found some relief.
Have you checked into acupuncture? This can deal with a variety of symptoms. I was skeptical but finally tried it and it helped with loosening my lower back, with the side effect of reduced anxiety. And I take 1mg Klonopin 2x/day. I still take it and have no immediate plans to taper off. I only recently started acupuncture.
All the best Cat.
Joe
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Let me also mention the the benzos are now making me feel like I’ve had 50 cups of coffee. There’s ZERO sedative effect.