Depression and anxiety that stem from ptsd, abuse/neglect

Posted by Jj @daphne47, Dec 30, 2020

I have depression and anxiety that stem from ptsd, abuse/neglect. I've fought my entire life for my sanity, making good steps with my mental health. Then boom, chronic illness. Fought this too. But I haven't had much relief or answers for 15 years. I'm burnt out pretty good right now and really hopeless. Not sure if my situation can change. Just feel I'm losing myself. I take medication and see a great therapist. This is not just a one time low...just tired of fighting for nothing. Can anyone relate? I'm not trying to get anyone down, everyone's situation is different, I guess I just want to express myself cause I don't have a lot of people to say this to. I understand accepting things, but it just seems like my life is stuck, whatever I do. I'm not afraid to live with disabilities, but, physically, my body is kicking my own arse. Feeling alone, defeated, and defective.

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@buyearly
Hi, you have piqued my curiosity when you said

"I started getting almost daily Migraines for 30 years, trying every med, given up on by several docs, therapy, etc., before a Neurologist found the answer for me"

What was the answer that he found? My wife has been suffering almost constant headaches for over a year, not sure if they are migraines or not though. Are you now free of your headaches? Best, Hank

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I'm glad to report I am about 95% free of Migraines. When I do have one it is my fault for eating food I know I am allergic to. The med my Neuroligist found that WORKS for me is Candesartan - 2mg in am and 2 mg at night. It is a low dose Blood Pressure med -- go figure! Tell your wife not to give up and work closely with a doctor because you never know what will work.

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@hearttoheart1, how are you doing today? What specific thing will you do today to be kind to yourself?

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Hi
Thank you for asking
I’m doing good today, but just so fearful ,like waiting for the anxiety to ‘kick in’
No getting away from it
I find it so good getting out in fresh air and getting my walk in ,as I call it
Just dragging me down
The defibrillator is working well,just in a vicious circle but take comfort from this kind group

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@Lacy2
Thanks JS. Linda thinks they are cause by change in the barometric pressure. She is absolutely convinced of it. What do I know, maybe they are? She occasionally gets ocular migraines. Her vision begins to disappear and sometimes does disappear. She see colors and striations as she describes it. These are never couple with pain as far as I remember her saying. Your childhood migraines sound horrid! Sounds like the pain from them has calmed down, which is wonderful.

So are things improving at all between your husband and yourself now that you both know that what he is exhibiting is likely caused by the heart surgery in some way? Knowledge is definitely power. Best, Hank

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@buyearly
Hi, you have piqued my curiosity when you said

"I started getting almost daily Migraines for 30 years, trying every med, given up on by several docs, therapy, etc., before a Neurologist found the answer for me"

What was the answer that he found? My wife has been suffering almost constant headaches for over a year, not sure if they are migraines or not though. Are you now free of your headaches? Best, Hank

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Folks just wanted to pass something along concerning migraines. Since I came down with whichever I have, Lyme Disease or Fibromyalgia 2 1/2 hears ago the headaches, migraines, have had me down. The nuerologist I went to said there was a new treatment out using Botox! She asked me if I would like to try it? I said sure, and with everything, what were the "Side Effects". she said they were Mild and No Big deal! It was one of the worst three weeks in the past two and a half years I have suffered!
everything you hear and see now on the adds are what I went through then that wern't published, that now are! My headaches, migraines, were Tripple, of what they were then.
Just a warning to stay away from Botox!
From, The Land Enchantment!
Sundance(RB)

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JS, I've gone through 2 1/2 years of this kind of treatment. Before I read your post concerning a person who had an autoimune issue. The person answering this person said to see a Rheumatologist, that they handaled these kinds of things! I don't know where they live but they don't in my medical system.
It was my orthopedic doctor who diagnosed my Lyme Disease because he had been a Microbiologist and understood it. It was my Rheumatolgist who said it was Fibromyalgia. I asked him what he could do to help me he just "BLEW ME OFF SAYING IT WASN'T SOMETHING HE DEALT WITH!"
It's really sad what our medical industry has come to!
In saying that I would be remiss not to say that I have one of the best PCP around. He's like a doctor I grew up with!
Example, I messaged him this morning asking him of the possibilty of maybe I had Mold Toxixcty in my house that maybe the cause as to what I have. He answered me back saying he would set me up with a referal to see an Alergist! He said also there were in home test out there! I got a call form his PA saying that if I went on line the inhome test were available through a hardwear store either at the store or online or on Amazon!
That's what most doctors have lost!
Let's all enjoy Life and get back to enjoying it again!
From, the Land of Enchantment!
Sundance(RB)

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Yes I do! Live in the North Valley, right behind, south, the Nature Center! Have lived within a 5 mile radius of here since I moved here from Phoenix 45 years ago.
Have turned offers down to move elsewhere,!
Would you happen to know any people who do body work. My person who worked on me for 20 years retired 10 years ago.
Keep m posted if you do know someone!
Thanks,
Sundance(RB)

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@sundance6 Think Taos is a bit out of the way to recommend someone for body work. Sounds like you live in a beautiful area.

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@sundance6 Think Taos is a bit out of the way to recommend someone for body work. Sounds like you live in a beautiful area.

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That area of the state is Beautiful as are many other places around the state! That's why they call it The Land of Enchantment! Both Santa Fe and Taos are very Special places! I live in what they call the North Valley. It is in the NW quadrant of ABQ. I live about 500 years away from the Rio Grande through what we call a Bosque, a Cottonwood forest! My office windows look out on it! This time of year we have Cranes and Geese doing flybys of my window!
The lady who does my Body work also lives in the valley which is very rural!
A couple of weeks ago I went up to Santa Fe, 50 miles away to have lunch with an old friend north of town between Santa Fe and Taos.
On the way home I drove through the "Plaza" area of Santa Fe. Acted like a tourist and just walked around! Also took the time to go back and remember memories around town! Very soothing!
Sundance(RB)

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Daphne47
I can relate so a lot of what you have written
I have depression/anxiety and defibrilator.
I feel you may have missed out on the positivities that you’ve mentioned and need to zoom in on them more
You have a great therapist..how wonderful
You’ve made good steps with your mental health , and you can do it again
That’s what we do 👍
I’ve increased omega into my diet
I go walking which I hated at the start but it’s part of my day now
Listening to music makes me happy
It has to be little things everyday,. and not to get overwhelmed with negativities
You can do it
It is in you.. pace yourself
I consider myself a work in progress
And be kind to yourself.x

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Daphne47
I can relate so a lot of what you have written
I have depression/anxiety and defibrilator.
I feel you may have missed out on the positivities that you’ve mentioned and need to zoom in on them more
You have a great therapist..how wonderful
You’ve made good steps with your mental health , and you can do it again
That’s what we do 👍
I’ve increased omega into my diet
I go walking which I hated at the start but it’s part of my day now
Listening to music makes me happy
It has to be little things everyday,. and not to get overwhelmed with negativities
You can do it
It is in you.. pace yourself
I consider myself a work in progress
And be kind to yourself.x

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@hearttoheart1
Can I just say that I like the way you write, it's a very unique style and actually kind of uplifting. I don't know how or why you use a defibrillator, but I'd be interested to find out, just something I haven't heard of people using as a day-to-day thing before. Best, Hank

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Hi
I had hypotrophiccardiomyopathy
My mum and her Dad died suddenly😔
I had been attending the doctor with ,just been unwell,not really ill ,but not myself
After many tests it seemed the diseased muscle in my heart was deteriorating little by little
So to have a defibrilator fitted was and is the best thing for me
It gives me reassurance and I take readings each day which go to the cardiologists office
I get many check ups too
So that’s my story
Happy to share👍

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