Depression and anxiety that stem from ptsd, abuse/neglect

Thanks Hank! So True about "Service"! Service is such a Simple thing to do! Whether it is to my customers! To my Friends and Family! To just reading, listening about people and their Success and their Strugles with Illness and Life! What was Glen Campbell song about, "Try a little Kindness!" It's not that hard to do! I guess as I was talking to Val about depression, it just takes a First Step and from then on gets easier.
Hve you read "Greenlights" by Matthew McConehey?
Talks about his Strughles and "Black Dogs"! Worth reading!
Take Care!
From The Land of Enchantment!
Sundance(RB)

I am crying every with anger outburts. I can't stop the panic. It's all due to bunion surgery back in October. I went to Dr. out of state. He sent a script back to Iowa for physical therapy. It' not helping under the balls of my feet. I need a podiatrist @ home in Des Moines but fear I'll need another surgery and I might be in terrible pain when I walk for the rest of my life. Walking helps the anxiety. Really depressed in an unhappy marriage and am overwhelmed. Please pray I get headed in the right direction. Maria.

Maria, Know that there are more people than you know reading this and sending you, thoughts, prayers, and blessings!
Sundance(RB)

Maria you are not alone. I have been fighting this Myotonia Congenita my whole life I am 55 yrs old but didn’t know what it was. Then 3 yrs ago they actually put a name to my physical fight. Knowing what I have just makes me more stubborn, I keep telling myself that I am Stro her than this and my will to live. Don’t get me wrong I have days where I feel like it’s winning. So I just try to regain myself and get back up and fight some more. I know it’s tough and I am praying for you and that your spirit will help you fight. You stay strong and don’t let this beat you. 🙏🏻💪🏻 Kim

@lacy2 I'd like to extend my welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect. We certainly do not want you to feel that you are "lost" here on Connect.

You said if things don't get better you have a "plan." Do you feel like you can keep yourself safe and if you did feel unsafe would you reach out to your spouse and adult children?

May I also ask if you have physical illnesses? If you do, you may find the chronic pain group helpful, along with Mental Health and the Depression & Anxiety groups. There is a lot of conversation in this group and members are usually very responsive, as they are in the Mental Health and Depression & Anxiety groups.
- Chronic Pain https://connect.mayoclinic.org/group/pain/

May I ask what type of illnesses you have been diagnosed with so I can appropriately direct you to any helpful groups so support?

@lacy2
Don't be hard on yourself for needing to write your many details here. You've had a JOURNEY! And like others on Connect who have had their own journeys, each one is a story that can't be told in just a few sentences. In reading this post I was particularly struck by the experience of having your caregiver, your husband, having his own medical situation happen and suddenly you are put in a position of trying to care for yourself and possibly him as well to an extent. Sounds similar to another Connect member, Renee, @faithwalker who is very ill and housebound and very confined to her chair, and who's husband, her caregiver, having such bad health issues himself that the roles occasionally have to be reversed. I worry about that myself. I care for my wife, and so far I am in good shape health wise, but one never knows what the future may hold. It gives one pause! I appreciate how difficult all that you have been through in your life has been for you. You have both my compassion as well as my admiration. You are a trooper, whether by choice or by necessity, much like many others here, and my mind is boggled regularly by what I read here sometimes. I hope you manage to be one of the survivors, i.e. do not need to resort to prematurely ending your life. But not being in your shoes I can only support whatever you decide to do. I just know that life, all life, has ups and downs, and if you are in a "down" there will inevitably be an eventual "up". Very best to you dear, Hank

@lacy2 It is cathartic to the soul to share in a non-threatening environment. We each have our stories, and being here on Mayo Clinic connect, we learn we are not alone, even if our individual circumstances may not be exactly the same as someone else. There is a release that happens inside of us when we know that others are [virtually] patting us on the shoulder, or giving us a hug of support, don't you agree?

I hope today goes well for you.
Ginger

So true Ginger💕🥰

Lacy2, I have discovered that the world seems to be 50/50 on discussion of illness! I like you discuss some of my illness and my short comings, while others do not feel comfortable doing it. I don't know if they feel they have to hide from it? I would be interested in hearing what others have to say!
Suncance(RB)

Ginger that is so True! It perfectly explains MayoConect!
Sundance(RB)