Peripheral nerve stimulators

In fact, after December 31st, I will no longer have an inactive pharmacy license. I can’t afford to keep renewing it because I can’t cognitively do the Continuing Education to keep it active.

@faithwalker007 Renee, I am so sorry to hear this. How are you dealing with it emotionally? My whole identity was my job so realizing I’ll never be that person again is horrible. You seem to be such a well-rounded person. Again, I am sorry that your are in this position.

@faithwalker Hi Renee, It so saddens me that you can't continue your Pharmacy education to keep your license active. Please, in honor of you and your grace, wisdon, helpfulness, I want to buy a few of your novels on Amazon. I think your last name starts with a "R" but I don't remember it. Please, dear lady, tell me your last name, and I will purchase a few books in your honor. You are a damn good writer anyway!!!! Love to you, LoriRenee1

You’re so sweet. My pen name (and real one for that matter lol) is Renee Blare. I have five novels or novellas in print or available as ebooks.
All of my books are available as ebooks. Three can be bought in paperback.
I do have an author account on Amazon and Facebook- several in fact.

1. Christian Books by Renee Blare
2. Renee Blare - CRPS
3. Do No Harm: Do Doctors Know How to Treat Chronic Pain?
4. Chronic Pain Management in the US
5. Inyan Kara Studio

My personal Facebook account is simply under my name, Renee Blare.

I also have Parler and MeWe accounts. Still learning this though. Lol

I’m dealing as best I can— one day at a time.

One question I have before I answer you though, what do you mean by “well-rounded?” I am a little uh, chubby, but...

@faithwalker007 I am so sorry for my bad choice of words. Well-rounded in the sense that you have more in your life than work. You wrote books and it sounds like you have much love in your life. It doesn’t sound like you defined yourself by your work. That is a wonderful thing!

@faithwalker Hi there, Renee Blare!!! I would be most interested in reading a few of your novels!!!! I will go onto Amazon, and order right now!!!! This is a thrill for me! You have such talent! LoriRenee1

@faithwalker Hi again, Renee, Just ordered 2 of you novels on Amazon, and gave you a friend request on facebook. I am Lori Miller (LoriRenee1) Now, I just have to have some time without pain, to focus on my new Renee Blare books! Not so easy!!! Lori

Lol thank you for buying them. You're an angel. I accepted your friend request. Which books did you get?

@bustrbrwn22
How are you dealing with this emotionally?
My whole identity was my job so realizing I’ll never be that person again is horrible.
You seem to be well-rounded person in that you have more in your life than work. You wrote books and have much love in your life. Doesn’t sound like you defined yourself by your work.
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Thank you for your comments. It makes me joyful that you can see the ripe fruit and pluck it! That fruit being hope, prayer, love, support, and joy amidst an existence of extreme pain, isolation while suffering from the rarest, incurable, and painful disease known to man.
I won’t lie to you. My job was also my identity like you. I’m a Christian and for me, my job as a pharmacist was a way to help others and I did it FOR GOD. But God gives and takes away and we are not privy to what, when, how, where, and why. He also doesn’t need us to do anything FOR Him. I think this was the LAST and most PAINFUL lesson (literally) I have ever had to learn, at least so far.
In truth, I have never defined myself by my work. It is merely an extension of my life like my writing, or my hunting, or health. I have always known and agreed with God (I’m a Christian.) that the day anything stands between Him and me, it is to be removed or He is to make me aware of it. How am I supposed to be mad at God for doing what I ask? True, He could have done it differently, but wow, I learned powerful lessons His way. I still am, as you can see.
I still went through the GRIEF cycle and spent way too long in the DEPRESSION-ANGER rotation and I am extremely thankful my husband stuck by my side. It’s amazing how we get FOR AND WITH someone mixed up, isn’t it? It was during this time frame that I learned how a Christian relationship is supposed to be and one lives with God, and a wife and husband live with each other for life.
The adjustments are the hard part and are the things I’m still trying to come to terms with.
Such as:
1. Painting, candle-making, diamond-painting VS. Hiking, driving, wandering
2. Website building, blogging/vlogging, social media VS. Website shop, marketing, advertising
3. Online helps, activism/advocacy, support groups VS. depression, negativity, suicide
I believe faith without works is dead and salvation is only available through Jesus Christ. I’ve lived my life that way since I was eighteen. But it’s only in the last 3 years that I’ve had a deep relationship with the Father and Jesus through the Holy Spirit. I walk WITH God in a way never before NOT because it’s what I’m supposed to do or what the Bible tells me to do. OR even what a Christian does.
It’s how I survive each day. And I’m the happiest and most joyful person I’ve ever been in my entire life.
My husband loves me. I love him and God makes us complete.
I always say I wouldn’t wish this pain on my worst enemy but if it brought them to know Christ in this manner, maybe that wouldn’t be such a bad idea…
I’ll leave that to the Lord. Lol I hope this helps. If you have any questions or need clarification, simply ask!
Renee
@faithwalker007