Increased depression after the death of my father

@aliali I highly recommend Elizabeth Kubler Ross's book. It gives an insight into various stages. I agree with Merry that it does not happen in compartmentalized stages. I have lost my father, mother, dear friends and the feelings and responses are very similar. Loss of energy is not unusual. Grief groups are often offered through hospitals, hospitals, and other agencies. It helps to talk, at least In my case.

@aliali Remember, you are feeling things and experiencing things you may have not had before. Having a relative pass away is not the same as a parent. You may well have to find new ways to handle this situation, or modify what has worked for you in the past. Good for you for realizing this! We know you will find the right combination for you. You mentioned your doctor is not available for two months because of his schedule. Perhaps if you feel the need to see him, they would understand this is an Emergency?
Ginger

I looked at the foreword of the book, and I felt better! I am supposed to finish reading it within a month!

I actually do not feel the desire to leave home these days to see the doctor. Reading a little of the above mentioned book has made me much better. I no longer attend my CBT sessions because I do it at home; I found a book that helped me much to ease depression.

@aliali Take whatever time you need to read the book. When I was growing up, it was considered to be a problem to mark in a book, but I find that there are some books with a good message that I need to remember, or comment on, so I do mark in those. And, definitely, keep the book so you can look at it again when you need to.
Ginger

@gingerw I have taken a look at what my religion says about mortality. It was something that causes me much happiness and acceptance! I feel more energized than before! But I think it takes a little time to restore my previous, ever-stronger condition!

@aliali It is good to read different ideas, and look at how others think. May I ask what religion you follow? I am always fascinated how there are so many different views to look at things. We all breathe the same, when we are cut we all have red blood, we all live and at some point, we pass on. I am glad you are searching, and finding peace. The work you put in to this is rewarding, and you should be proud that you did this!
Ginger

I am a Muslim. However, I belong to the Shia, the minority of Muslims, instead of Sunni, the well known sect. We aim to promote for peace and happiness all around the globe. The recent attack in New Zealand, for example, was conducted by Sunni members. I have never heard that there was and attack which was conducted by Shia; also, have you ever heard about the existence of Shia militant groups like the Sunni ISIS and al Qaeda?! We strongly decry, condemn and denounce such deeds!

@aliali My daughter in law is Shai and said the same thing

Dear Aliali, l just came across your post here.l realize this was 5 years ago l want to tell you how sorry l am to hear your father passed away.l hope your doing ok?❤️ I lost my Father 8 years ago it hurts SO bad still hurts. He was my world my BF l ever had.💔 It is really hard to go on.lbsuffer from depression also. People all say it gets better in time l maybe you did not love your deceased enough. Then think l don't seem to have the skills to move on. My heart breaks for you Aliali🌹💛 Please know l added you to my prayer list. If there is anything l can do to help you please let me know. Like you l sleep 12 to 20 hours in one day. Once 24 hours straight. Your right it numbs the pain no worries when we wake up. I think let me wake up and everything is ok Dad still here. Everything is a struggle even to open a window is to hard. I hope your heart 💜 is healing Sweetie. XXXXXX🌹