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Reunion With Brother After Years (Severe Anxiety)

Posted by EdCork @yangedd, Dec 4, 2018

Hi guys,

Sorry I haven't been on in days, but going through quite an emotional and anxiety ridden time. As people know, my Ma (Mum) passed away in 2010 from Colon Cancer. I then left my hometown with my partner and moved to Dublin as he got a job offer with a very prestigious company, thus cutting my family out of my life during a very bad time in my life where my addiction to alcohol spiralled out of control. My nephew was born during the summer, and because of not being in contact with my brother I have never met him. Thankfully, with the help of a dear friend who kindly acted as a mediator, myself and my brother have agreed to make contact with each other after a very, very long time. My friend, Freda, sent me pictures of my nephew and I guess I am very emotional and sad, yet positive that things can work out after all these years just in time for Christmas. Because the anxiety is so bad I've been taking 50mg Lyrica x2 daily and also 40mg Propranolol x2 daily for the last three days. I didn't sleep a wink last night with everything in my head so I actually went to the pharmacy and collected one 0.25mg Halcion, which are on PRN to help me tonight. I guess with the festive season coming in I feel not so great, but am really trying to be positive and look to the future.

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Parus | @parus | Jan 9, 2019

It is interesting how a parent can single out one child to mistreat. So many here are survivors. We can go along doing okay and then something can hurl us back into the past. Can get back there rapidly and the journey back is arduous and painful.
I had been wondering about @yangedd so thank you @lisalucier for the reminder to check.

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sirgalahad | @sirgalahad | Jan 13, 2019

sorries that this broke down , in some respects you tried and its genuinely time to move on and look after yourself .i am speaking from a perspective that my siblings want nothing to do with their disabled brother except when they are stressed and or need my financial imput .
They ignored and shitted on me when our mother died and dint agree having me as the executor of my mums estate and i made sure i met mums wishes and provide mostly for her daughters which i did. my eldest sister whom has come back from India a week ago actually emailed me expecting me to donate $100,000 to help her recovery .she hadnt spoken to me in 15 years and tore strips off and said you get on with getting mums estate sorted i need the monies and she didnt care about my grief and sadness and hurt and doing my best as an autistic .she didnt care about my grief and my hurts and simply fix it . life has moved on i heard from annother sister that she my eldest sister is mystified why i never speak to her at all .so they are blind and dumband we call it being gillianised .i have moved on i am ambivalent but shewill need support whilst she recovers but not meetingme

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Ginger, Volunteer Mentor | @gingerw | Jan 14, 2019
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@sirgalahad

sorries that this broke down , in some respects you tried and its genuinely time to move on and look after yourself .i am speaking from a perspective that my siblings want nothing to do with their disabled brother except when they are stressed and or need my financial imput .
They ignored and shitted on me when our mother died and dint agree having me as the executor of my mums estate and i made sure i met mums wishes and provide mostly for her daughters which i did. my eldest sister whom has come back from India a week ago actually emailed me expecting me to donate $100,000 to help her recovery .she hadnt spoken to me in 15 years and tore strips off and said you get on with getting mums estate sorted i need the monies and she didnt care about my grief and sadness and hurt and doing my best as an autistic .she didnt care about my grief and my hurts and simply fix it . life has moved on i heard from annother sister that she my eldest sister is mystified why i never speak to her at all .so they are blind and dumband we call it being gillianised .i have moved on i am ambivalent but shewill need support whilst she recovers but not meetingme

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@sirgalahad We cannot choose our blood family. We can choose our friends and cyber family here on Connect. I, for one, am glad you are here.
Ginger

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sirgalahad | @sirgalahad | Jan 14, 2019

thankyou M/S Ginger that is wonderful and bear hugs Marmacita needs a lot of support at this juncture send lots of hugs and ears to hear her

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Parus | @parus | Jan 16, 2019
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@parus

It is interesting how a parent can single out one child to mistreat. So many here are survivors. We can go along doing okay and then something can hurl us back into the past. Can get back there rapidly and the journey back is arduous and painful.
I had been wondering about @yangedd so thank you @lisalucier for the reminder to check.

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@merpreb I am considering trying EMDR for PTSD which has started robbing me of so much life. I talked with the therapist I have been seeing occasionally and there are a couple of therapists she knows that are trained in this area as in went to classes opposed to watching a YouTube video and saying they are trained. Any input?

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Merry, Alumni Mentor | @merpreb | Jan 16, 2019
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@parus

@merpreb I am considering trying EMDR for PTSD which has started robbing me of so much life. I talked with the therapist I have been seeing occasionally and there are a couple of therapists she knows that are trained in this area as in went to classes opposed to watching a YouTube video and saying they are trained. Any input?

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Morning Parus- Yes I have. My nephew mentioned it to me a while back. Other than that I don't know anything about it. Sorry. But I'll look into it.

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Parus | @parus | Jan 16, 2019
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@merpreb

Morning Parus- Yes I have. My nephew mentioned it to me a while back. Other than that I don't know anything about it. Sorry. But I'll look into it.

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@merpreb I have read some on it. I don’t know of anyone who has tried EMDR.

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Merry, Alumni Mentor | @merpreb | Jan 16, 2019

Parus- Neither do I. I'm going to google the hell out of it and contact my nephew. Will be in touch.

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