Does CBD oil help you with your depression and/or anxiety?

@3148743 Welcome to Mayo Connect! I'm not quite sure what you mean by a high Indica smoker. Does this mean that you smoke a lot of it or does this refer to the dosage? I use CBD oil and find that it helps with anxiety and depression and my PTSD. But I also take an anti depressant and wellbutin. I am sorry that you are struggling. Some people on this site have mentioned Fairway but I buy my oil at a compassion store in my state. I'm leery about buying this on-line. CBD oils are popping up everywhere now and I don't think that there has been enough time for the bad companies to be weeded out. Is there a dispensary near yu? If so I'd ask there advice about dosages and the balance with thc and oil. Drug withdrawal can cause depression so perhaps that is causing your present symptoms. Have you asked your doctor for advice with this?

I am hoping to start back on the CBD oil by the 1st of the year. Maybe by that time I will change my mind. The Holiday season is hard. I have tried to make my hibernal cave warm and Christmasy. The Gringe still hovers.
Anyone else have a hard time at Christmas? The violent maternal outbursts from long ago just keep badgering my mind. I find myself wanting to trash all of the decorations and deny there is a Christmas. How to silence the past?? Keep busy, busy, busy!! And next time a sibling calls don’t answer!! Upset with self that I am allowing the past to control my mind again. Is what it is.

@parus- Holidays are very very rough on people with histories of difficult family relations. I have yet to ask if you see them at all?

@merpreb It has been 5 years. I can no longer play their game of forget the bad remember the good.

Brave you Parus! Good for you. Now, time to bury the hatchet too. You have five years of memories without them!

Holidays are difficult for many, including me It always takes me back to my childhood Christmas's and I begin o yearn for the happy Christmas of my childhood. My Christmas memories are from my young childhood days. We were always reminded of what the Season was about so Christmas Mass is always a part of my Christmas. I tend to see the peaceful times of Christmas, but my sister who is 6 years older remembers a different piece of Christmas. She, being the oldest, would be our babysitter. She remembers waiting up for our parents to return from the Annual Christmas party given by my mother's employer. Her memory is one of worry and anxiety. My parents would get drunk and would have to drive a high, windy road to get home. Her fear was that they would no return. It is amazing how perception of events is seen so differently by each of us. Leaving that behind for the time I will share my feelings of this year's Christmas. My husband died on Jan. 7, 2018. Last Christmas day we spent in his hospital room. Sad, but we were together. This year not. We attended Christmas Mass together for 23 years, holding hands throughout the beautiful Service. I am holding on to these beautiful memories. The fear of falling totally apart frightens me. I will attend the morning Mass and pan to quietly spending Christmas Eve with my ever so loved Beagle dog named Roosevelt. I am very involved with Hospice and their counselors and the people I have met through them are awesome. Getting back to CBD use and depression I must say that I feel the CBD along with my prescribed medications are helping me to sort out some of my feelings in a bit calmer way. I have to put the rest in God's hands. I am not changing any of my medications during this emotional season per doctor's orders. Thank you.

@summertime4 I am so sorry for the loss of your husband. The first holiday is extremely tough and I wish that you lived near me so you wouldn't be alone. I feel the same way about CBD oil and my meds. I don't want to stir up the pot too much. There's enough going on! Can you spend time with one of the Hospice workers? They are a miracle group! Maybe go to a movie or play?

@summertime4 Your words are well written and convey the way you are feeling. Stay well.

@summertime4 My sincere condolences on your loss and my gratitude for your post. I hope you read the words on the screen and can see the cathartic effect it has. Holiday seasons are tough for so many, for so many reasons, and the loss of a loved one is right at the top. Remember we are all here for you and each other around this cyber kitchen table.
Ginger

@parus The Great Spirit is playing games again. The post I typed out was lost to cyber space, so there must have been something for me to say but read only to myself. Yes this is a rough time of year. I have 3 siblings who are out of my life because I refuse to play their games. That's their loss. But sometimes my mind goes rogue this time of year and wonders, "what if..."
Ginger